Couch 191: The Lazy Caterer Couch

Awww thanks Lemoncake!

Every lazy caterer number is one more than a triangular number.

Baby T said originally that 2x a week is ok if it's needed, well I didn't realize at the time, that it means if HE gives the ok. I tried calling to get in again this week and the woman on the phone said that she can't put me down unless he says its ok. So she sent me to a voicemail he apparently has now but it was "full" so I couldn't leave anything, so I called back and she said she would ask him and call me back, that was at 830am, no word. I feel annoying calling again because it's not urgent its just more yesterday stunk and I have so much more I want to get off my mind right now. He's the only person in real life I talk to about T.

The other thing that sucks, he barley has any spots open now, so I had like 4 or 5 spots to pick from next week. I hate not having the same day/time every week. Sigh....

I'm feeling a bit flustered

It's okay to call again.

Perhaps if you book in advance enough you could have a set slot.

They told me they only can do 2 weeks in advance for appointments, and it's whatever is open. Apparently he must be more popular now because the first week I saw him, I got in the next day from calling.

I may call again but idk, I feel like he's going to judge it based on need and there isn't a need and it's not anything I'd do regularly. I also think he's worried I may attach or something like with T but I wont, I typically don't and baby T has enough annoying about him that it's easy to be distant, I haven't even asked him a single thing about himself.

omg i woke up this morning to a realisation that all this stuff with my T is about my mothers.

I meant we are under a microscope haha

You didnt want to commit to therapy after your last appointment. Its like you have this idea of therapy as being like some husbands say, "Well, my wife is married, but im not!" Meaning the weaker or dependent one HAS to be there, but the master can come and go? But thats not really true, is it. Each person controls their participation in their relationship.

Anyway, i think his unavailability is partly his not wanting to play that game. Therapy isnt a drop-in thing.

It doesnt have to be need. It can be just a want. Wanting your life to be different. Wanting a willing, helpful, pleasant, available ear attached to a human brain.

You ARE in control of your half of your relationships. Maybe T leaving made you feel like you werent, but there are other ts in the sea.

Actually that's not true. I hate going because it's not t. I go because i know i need some help managing things. I said that

It has nothing to do with me or so called games. Its company policy and I assume the woman never asked him.

Its not a game. I want to be able to deal with this in short term therapy. Long term i won't do again

That being said, I'm not bothering to call again so I go back next Tuesday. So no need for judgement

It can be.

I was on the way to Info’s when my tire blew on the freeway. Ironically I had an appointment to get new tires tomorrow. So I’m waiting for AAA to tow me to the tire place.

I wanted to change the tire myself but it is in shreds and I’d rather the experts do it.

At least Info’s first response was are you ok.

Wow @@ I'm glad you are okay! That sounds like it was scary! HUGS Kit

I'm bored at the moment. I'm at work and there's probably stuff I could do, but I don't want to. It's been a pretty quiet day at work. Not much going on. Some of my coworkers are putting stickers on brochures. It's that kind of day. Makes me sleepy and tired. I was already sleepy and tired, so I guess it just didn't help! I'm thinking of leaving early today and going home to rest. Kit

I am glad you are okay and glad the therapist inquired. Letting the experts handle such things can be the better part of valour at times.

Agreed, I've certainly had some last-minute sessions. The one on Friday was extremely helpful. Granted, T's differ in their policies on that, and much of it depends on their schedule. (Ex-T's was pretty much always full--I did get a last-minute extra session once because she just happened to have a cancellation. Same with ex-MC.)

Yikes, glad you're OK! So I guess no Info tonight then?

That will teach him a firm lesson.

Insight while on my afternoon walk: life isn't only in the destination. It's in the figuring out, in the journey itself, too. Most of it, probably.

That is what they say. I don't see any intrinsic value either way - only what one imposes upon it in my opinion. Filling in time between birth and death some way or other.

Well, it sounded a lot more profound in my head.

journey not the destination quote - Bing images

A lot of mountains and highways with a few sunsets and beaches thrown in for good measure.

Yup. So no fashion updates today for her Couch fans.

Isn't your mall makeover this weekend or next?

I was going to cancel it today in session. Another disappointment for the Couch.

But yeah, it was supposed to be Saturday.

You can't cancel! You need to take one for the team!