Couch 196: Cinnamon Swirls

I think we finally locked down a place to live! It's a nice place, just a few miles from the beach. You can smell the ocean air through the canyon. We paid the deposit, so we're out $500 if my H changes his mind.


I'm so excited just knowing I'll have a place to live!

I got a text today from the people that hired to start in July. The mom got laid off from her job and so therefore they wonÂ’t need childcare. Happy fu**ing Friday.
Back to square 1. I need to find a job. I have one month. ItÂ’s not their fault but it sucks. Now IÂ’m going to spend the next couple weeks on job sites and talking to people trying to secure interviews. IÂ’m so upset. And IÂ’m exhausted after work today. IÂ’m heading to bed.

How come when you are lying wondering if you should get up cats have an unerring instinct to bounce off your bladder

I am learning the ten principles of economics. I keep wanting to apply them to therapy.

I know, right?! Its like theyre the same thing!!🤯

unbeknownst to me when I moved back in with my dad for a bit he was sneaking my cat (Omi) wet food at 4:30AM before he went to work. I moved out and rented a room with Omi and she started jumping from the high windowsill onto my bladder (I was using a mattress on the floor below the window) at 4:30 every morning... I would run to pee, she would run out and I had to open the wet food to get her back in the room... I trained quickly! It wasn’t until years later that my dad fessed up.

I woke up this morning with a pounding headache. It’s going to be the 70’s in my parts. I may go walk around the park or something then I’m giving my boss a date night tonight so that’s extra money. I feel so on edge about the job thing. I really need to land something within the next 30 days. I felt so good and was relaxing a little bit knowing I had something set for July. That job was perfect. Done by 5 every day. 4 minutes from my house. The lady was super nice. She didn’t make me feel like I was the hired help when I was there that trial day. My current boss knows her so she trusted me from the get go. And now...I have to take whatever I can get.

How do you guys deal with the limitations of therapy?

R forgot about our session on Wednesday, but gave me a freebie on Thursday. I told him about my dream about the BBC interview but he said it wasn't true. He shared with me that he had been called by a producer on a channel 4 show to give an opinion. He never usually shares stuff .

Today he shared more stuff about after I told him that he made the right choice as that show was cringey. I went on about he could have done it for the money. He told me how much he earned from the charity he worked for- but that he wanted to focus on therapy so stopped the charity work. I said that's good, as that meant more availability, I asked if he had more new clients now, but he didn't tell me.

I got irritated with him for shutting me out.

He went on about looking at the effect his disclosures had on me. How I wanted to have a special relationship with him. That he couldn't love me unconditionally,like I wanted from my father.

His blank slate is ****ing irritating. I don't feel like I know him and this whole thing feels so fake.

I told him i was off on tuesday, I wanted the Wednesday time I've had because, but he said I should stick with my normal otherwise he might forget. I said That I couldn't do my normal thusrday session.So just friday but I want to not see him-so 3 sessions before we're back to normal anyway. :swordfght: I did technically ask after my session was over about arranging next session which he did mention= total call was 51 mins and 45 seconds. So over by 1 min. 45s Even the time thing bugs me.

I passed sports medicine 17/20. But my stupid brain was panicked and woke me up at 4.19am automatically. Still have pharma to do.

Could you also look for work in daycare centers (even if that's not ideal), or say a summer camp thing just for now? Not sure if you need a different certification. Could you also advertise yourself in local Facebook parenting groups? (we have a bunch near me.) Unless you've already done that of course! Hope you can find something soon...