Couch 203: The Spam and Cool Whip Couch!

1. Set a limit. Don't reply more than once a day.

2. Say something like "Hi- I've just seen this, but I'm not home right now, but will reply as soon as i can, and gradually build up the time ie after 4-5 hours instead of straight away and repeat so it's once every other day, then 2-3 days etc/whatever you're comfortable with.

Idk. I probably wouldn't do that. Seems kind of infantilizing. It's not like they won't notice that a source of support is no longer as reliable. If you need to pull back, that's fine, but I think it would be kinder to be upfront about it and not leave this person wondering if you're just gradually getting sick of hearing about whatever it is they're going through. I mean, maybe you are sick of it, but they will notice the gradual drop off in contact.

You aren't a bad person.

I'm exhausted but I'm not actually sleepy. I think I'm just bone weary. I'm hoping the upcoming three day weekend helps. Like gives me a chance to reset or something. I'm starting to feel unable to cope. But I haven't sh-ed. I went to bed at seven last night. I got up at 5:30 AM. Sleeping has definitely become an escape for me. IDK what to do about it.

My boss just came and asked me if he is a good boss. Me: ummm. I can't even think right now. I told him yes. but IDK. What an odd question. There seems to be only one correct response which would be yes. My brain can't take this today.

Wow, Kit. That's a very odd question indeed. Can't blame you for being thrown by it at all. HUGS

My boss got offended when someone told them they were "adequate." I'm not ballsy enough to say something like that! I would have answered yes, as well.

If I had my wits about me, I would have pulled a trick from the T bag and asked,"Don't you think you're a good boss?" which basically gives the impression that you think he is without saying it. People who ask odd and almost inappropriate questions like that I think are looking for an excuse to think out loud and be heard. So it isn't an answer they're really looking for, and maybe couldn't even hear it if given, but to somehow leave feeling good.

I am Sigh. It's really beating me down. I'm supposed to have coffee with a friend tonight. My inclination is to cancel. But former T told me to do the opposite of what I want to do when I feel this way. So I am going to go. More than likely, seeing my friend will probably be helpful. It will also probably be draining. But I'm hoping the helpfulness will outweigh the drain.

That's a good one @feralkittymom I wish I would have thought of that. My gut feeling is that he was feeling insecure and wanted someone who is a yes man (okay yes woman) which I kind of am to bolster his self esteem today. IDK if he is going through some thing or is just having doubts. He's been in the position less than 3 months so I think there's a lot of different pressures that maybe he hadn't anticipated. I tried to be reassuring but I have to admit I'm not the most reassuring today. The other day he was "venting" to the receptionist and I was glad it wasn't towards me because I never know what to do in those situations.

Said boss was asking me about information we could use to do safety meetings. WTH? I'm in accounting. Not the manufacturing part of our business. I know nothing about what needs to happen safety wise. So I went to our worker's comp website and pulled down some information, but I'm like, really? BTW, we have a safety manager on staff. And its not me.

Retail therapy: just spent $90 on shoes.

Our associate chair’s term ended early by mutual agreement between him and the chair this morning.

I am lying low, as I am eligible to be associate chair and don’t want to be.

I hope you don't have to be.

This reminds me of a scene in the movie Phoebe in Wonderland. The children are playing tag and Phoebe is tagged "it." She is stressing out and saying, "I can't be it! Please don't make me be it!" Then she spits at the other students. Way to go Phoebe!

Tempting, but I’m not sure academic freedom covers spitting on colleagues.

Darn. Probably can't get in a light saber fight with them either huh?

Stupid SUI thoughts aren't going away. Argh. I'm almost off of work. I'm about to hang out with my friend. I'm having tons of visual hallucinations and these dang thoughts. I don't have another $90 to spend on shoes for retail therapy so I gotta think of some other stuff. Pulls out coping box. Hmm. Reading. Sleeping. Laying under my weighted blankets. Listening to music. Going to my friend's house. (different friend). Playing with my pets. Going to the hospital if it won't stop. Emailing former T. Asking a friend to pray for me/with me. Hang out with my parents. Play a game. Go to the crises center. Play basketball. Go for a run. Eat ice cream. Bake something. Okay I got some ideas. Even thinking about stuff I can do seemed to help a little. I just gotta get distracted enough that I'm not noticing the thoughts.

Slumber, when do you next see your pdoc? The visual hallucinations may be related to your other unpleasant symptoms. Dont make me start nagging you! With artie on break, i have all kindsa free nag time!

Kit - Do you take any meds? My sui thoughts used to be horrible. I had one Pdoc give me an antipsychotic and it really helped. I now take Abilify and it's a life saver...literally.

I have an appointment with my PDOC in November. It's a ways away but hopefully things will level out soon. Thank you.

Thanks, yes, I take an anti depressant, an anti psychotic, ADHD medication which my PDOC uses to augment the AD, anti anxiety medication, and sleep medication. I also take migraine meds, and statin meds, and fish oil. The Rexulti (ap) does help but it makes me very numb and having blunted emotions. Hugs Kit

Stupid exT i was fine until my GP said that exT definitely wasnt taking new clients and not re-engaging with old ones. Now my anger is just suddenly there and i cant stop shaking.
I so want to send him a text or email telling him how i know.

I bit my tongue and now i am ropable i hate him soooo much

I'm so frustrated with myself. I went into therapy session with the intent to tell T about my SI this week. Got cold feet and started talking about my father "tickling" my feet this afternoon. I couldn't put the words together of what set me off and couldn't calm down until I started driving home. Now I feel like if I mention the SI tomorrow we won't have time to discuss it because it'll be our weekend and Monday is Labor Day. I should have mentioned it today.

Wait, why is that making you mad? I thought that's what he had told you - that he wouldn't take you back because he's scaling back.

Sorry this continues to all be a nightmare for you. How is the new therapist going?

Sorry you must have missed the bit where i sent him an email, from a fake potential client and responded by offering this person ongoing session starting November. The jury is out om the new therapist.