Cried for the first time in 3 years

So I cried for the first time ever in session. I've been with my T for almost 3 years now. And I could never even shed a tear. I think that must be threatening for a T. I mean... I think its their job to make us cry... (j/k).. no really. I was beginning to think i was made of stone. I cry occassionally in private but never in front of someone. And i was telling her about how difficult, sad, hopeless I was feeling and I cried.. Maybe only 3 tears, but I think I amazed myself. It made me feel better.

After she told me i was loveable too. No one has ever told me that. Ever. It means so much that it scaes me a lil.... *cryin*

(((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))
i believe you are lovable, too.
Kiya

((((((((((((((( ev )))))))))))))))))

you ARE lovable...so caring and kind.

KD

(((((((kimmy & Kiya))))))) Thank you!!

YAY!!!! I so know how you feel! It took me years to cry in front of others, I always had to put up a "I'm tough" front.
Don't you feel much better? I'm thinking that therapist is helpful in feeling. Feeling all feelings, being real, so we don't hold them in, get sick, or turn to drugs, alcohol, or other drugs/unhealthy ways to cover them up...Also, is it hard for you to hear positive things about yourself?
*smiling* It did for me at first, and it takes time until you truly believe it, and it won't matter what anyone else says to hurt you with words...

(((((((EV)))))))))

Yes I agree--you are definitely lovable!! (And a good friend to boot.)

I was not able to cry in front of T for nearly a year--then it started with a tear or two and the next thing you know I'm sobbing on a regular basis.......yikes!!!



Peace

I agree with everyone else-- Yes, you ARE loveable.

And I think this is a big step, showing an emotion to your T. I s'pose you felt better, as bottling all that up for so long can be quit the task(I truly understand) No I don't believe you were ever made of stone.... perhaps just too scared to appear vulnerable, that you have feelings and those feelings can be hurt/tears/sad...... and well, you will still be safe showing those feelings.

Can I ask you...... Have you ever shown your T. anger?

I finally had tears too..... but...... anger..... *gulp*.... that's a whole other story. so so afraid of anger....

thinking of you-

mandy

((((((((((EV)))))))))
You are indeed VERY loveable.
And I can only imaging how good it felt to finally be able to cry in front of your T. I was never able to do that myself, but i always wished i could. It seemed that as soon as I left T's office i started bawling... the closest I ever got to it was when i called her when i was crying.
Take care

Gosh.....these posts make me think I have a really big problem!!!!! I MUST be a major cry-baby. I have found it impossible for a long time to differentiate between hurt & anger. They feel the same to me. Whenever I feel this powerful force (whatever it is), I well up immediately. The 1st time I saw my present t, I was sobbing within 10min. I wish it didn't happen. If I try to stop the tears, I start to hiccup and tears literally POP one at a time out of my eyes.
Sooooo attractive.........NOT!!

tulips

You are so lovable! I am happy that you were able to share those tears with your T.

That is how it started with me and now I'll bet he wishes I'd stop! Just kidding

Good job!