Couch 206: The Hersilia Couch

Why? You canceled the session, so he didn’t show.

What am I missing?

Awwww i'm sorry, Lemon. Hugs

Hi Couchies. My Dad went to the ER this morning with chest pains. My Mom went with him. I hesitated. I debated about calling in to work and going with my Dad, but since my Mom was going and the owner of the business is here, I decided to come to work. I'm worried about my Dad though. Either way, if I would have gone with my Dad, I would have been worried about work. Since I went to work, I'm worried about my Dad. I would be worried about my Dad either way. I told my parents to call me. I just got a text from my Dad telling me he is still at the hospital, waiting for the results from the EKG, the blood work, and the X-Ray. So I am so glad that he is communicating with me. It helps my anxiety. I really hope he is okay. I don't know what I would do without him. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit

I called him and let it ring twice before hanging up.
Then I called him again - no answer.

I doubt he'd call me back as we never usually do phone calls.

I hope he's okay and fingers crossed you hear back soon.

That sounds so scary.

I hope he's ok, Kit. Hugs

I hope your Dad is ok SK.

I think you've hit a gold mine there with that realization. I'm glad you can talk to Dr T tomorrow about it further.

You probably believe in anthropomorphism!

Mom called me. Dad didn't have a heart attack but they are going to admit him overnight for observation. So good news but still anxiety provoking.

Do you guys ever look in each others eyes? To me, she always has this funny look in her eyes in your pictures of her. Sort of scared or suspicious or runaway? I would think that would have to calm down first. In her little cat mind.

I can get that. But I always tell him that I'm quitting every other second week. But still turn up and he's always there too because "he's learnt not to take everything I say at face value".

It's the fact that I can't reach him.

I emailed him on the 9th- no response.
The second I quit email was sent on the 13th and wasn't replied to either.

The first was sent during his break, but I'm "allowed" to do so and have sent emails during his last two breaks. He's been back this whole week. Why would he think I wouldn't turn up?

HUGS @Lemoncake

You might like this video Una.

Lemon - maybe its like arties t said, and mine - they realize they are colluding with us. We ARE pretty charming, after all! So no surprise that they would fall victim to OUR wiles.

That is great! I had read an article about this in the nytimes, but seeing it in action is very charming!

Maybe they will insert a stent or have him start taking aspirin or something.

Today was a Day. Training for work that very unexpectedly connected some dots re: my situation. Discussed possible scenarios in said training with R yesterday, and she said I could email to 'download' if need be. She also said she'd like to read my latest published pieces, which I emailed to her after the session yesterday. Too much to send another email?

It was as if my worst nightmare had come true. My t session was temporarily changed to today and I always hate that as I worry she will forget I'm coming if it's not the usual time. Got there and knocked on the door. She didn't answer. I knocked again. Still no answer. I waited 7 minutes and then left. All I could think of was that T had let me down and forgotten about me. I wasn't cared about, I didn't matter. A minute later I had a text from T...she was in the toilet. I replied that I assumed she had forgotten about me. T replied saying of course she hadn't... I was too angry to respond. I went to sit somewhere to try and stop shaking, After a few minutes I realised that although I wanted to go home and be angry, I'd only be hurting myself and would feel far worse. So I text T to see if I could go back. T replied yes it was fine if I wanted to, but she would understand if I was too upset. I did go back. It did mess up the session a bit. I was shaking and angry. T explained she'd had a client before me, needed the toilet quickly but it had been occupied by family member. She was very apologetic. All I could think about was that she didn't care because she'd seen someone else who clearly mattered more and the family member mattered more than I obviously do. I tried to talk about other stuff but it was hard. Now I've got even longer until I see her again and just feel terrible.

Lol it had actually been going very well between us too. No ruptures for months which was a first.

What's my wiles?

I'm so sorry to read this. I hope you are okay

I'm sorry you're struggling with this. Did you cancel the session and are you regretting it? I do hope you hear from your t.

She is still very skittish, was a feral rescue. If she catches me looking at her eyes she takes off. When she lets us pet her, she closes her eyes.

Artie, it is such good news about your session yesterday - it sounds like your t had time to process as well and having this one was the best thing for both of you so that you can now move on. Really pleased for you.

Yes, we are charming aren't we? I'm beginning to understand the colluding thing a bit more I think....