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Hi everyone, Therapy last night went okay with Pastor T. He wants me to have an "accountability partner" for the SH. Someone I can call and ask them to pray for me when I want to SH. I'm really not sure I am comfortable with this. First off, a lot of people IRL don't know about the SH so it would mean being open and vulnerable with someone--ugh. Second, it is not really a churchy sort of problem to have. Maybe that is me making judgments about myself, but I just don't know if people in my Church would get it. I have one friend from Church who I know would pray for me but she has told me before, she doesn't understand it at all. And he says I hang out too much with the senior adults, because they are safe and I don't have to be too vulnerable with them. I don't know if that is true. It's just that I hang out with my parents and they hang out with the senior crew. I'm going to go to therapy tomorrow night with regular T. I'm pretty stressed about the accountability partner thing. I kind of want to SH over it. Probably not a good thing. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit

That sounds like a lot to try to weigh out, and it can be hard to see these kinds of things clearly when you're in the middle of it. Have you considered whether you are getting what you need from either of these therapists? It sounds like they are trying to throw surface-level solutions at something that likely is the result of deep, deep pain. SH is often more a symptom, rather than the root cause of the problem.

I'm frustrated at work about a pay issue.

Slumber, but is the person monthly or weekly? That overrides the actual calendar.

Why was fall always the blowing-upingest of the payroll runs?! 🤯 i guess because of all the holidays.

My new favorite tv show is Escape to the Country. I am soooo ignorant of UK history and geography. I am more convinced than ever that i am a long lost English princess.

Hi unaluna, the person is a salaried individual who is taking an unpaid leave of absence for three days out of the pay period. I'm looking at labor law on the dol.gov website and you can either use an hourly or daily equivalent of the person's weekly salary or any other amount proportional to the time not worked. But as it turns out, you can do an hourly equivalent and a daily equivalent and the two do not come out the same way. I always error on the side of the employee (whichever way gives them more money) since it is not spelled out in our handbook but there's differing points of view on how to proceed. So it's complicated and I'm getting a headache. Sigh.

Hi everyone, Therapy last night went okay with Pastor T. He wants me to have an "accountability partner" for the SH. Someone I can call and ask them to pray for me when I want to SH. I'm really not sure I am comfortable with this. First off, a lot of people IRL don't know about the SH so it would mean being open and vulnerable with someone--ugh. Second, it is not really a churchy sort of problem to have. Maybe that is me making judgments about myself, but I just don't know if people in my Church would get it. I have one friend from Church who I know would pray for me but she has told me before, she doesn't understand it at all. And he says I hang out too much with the senior adults, because they are safe and I don't have to be too vulnerable with them. I don't know if that is true. It's just that I hang out with my parents and they hang out with the senior crew. I'm going to go to therapy tomorrow night with regular T. I'm pretty stressed about the accountability partner thing. I kind of want to SH over it. Probably not a good thing. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit

My boss walked over to ask me a question while I was crying. Not just watery eyes, full-on tears rolling down cheeks. So embarrassing. He just said "when you have a minute can you come over and help me with something?" At least we both pretended it didn't happen.

I missed about 250 posts. Sorry!

I have two cats. One of them has been missing since about the second week of June. I'm still going to houses in the neighborhood to see if anyone has seen him but no luck yet. I think it's time to give up. I asked G-d for a sign and this is what happened....

The next day I took my other cat to the vet for dental work. They did blood work before the dental and decided not to do the dental after all because her kidney function was impaired and she might not survive anesthesia. She's now on a special diet and she could have a year or two left. I think this is a sign that I should stop looking for my lost cat and focus on the one I still have.

I think someone has taken him in, I don't see any sign of him in the neighborhood.

Comments appreciated.

Boss is human and has cried too.

How are you feeling now? Are you still at work or at home?

I want to talk to my T tonight or someone who isn't going to be a judgemental you know what. I feel like I'm messing everything up.
Pdoc is weaning me off this med but hasn't talked about replacing it with anything. Today's appointment was so rushed it was ridiculous.
The feelings I'm having tonight are intense.

I'm okay. Thanks for asking. I also emailed my therapist for reassurance that he was telling me the truth yesterday that I'm not an awful person after I shared something really shameful. I have a deadline at work this week that I'm struggling with so I'm trying to stay focused and nose to the grindstone.

I'm back home after having the joy of having my card declined at the store. ( My app didn't show me that I had a pending transaction so I had less money than I thought I did and I didn't actually check it today but did yesterday).

Thankfully I did have enough cash on me.

Moral of the story kids always carry cash.

This is true, as I plan to go buy 2 new litter boxes after work today identical to the preferred one, so I can replace the oldest one and give them the +1.

Is that all they get for National Cat Day? Chintzy.

I'm glad you had cash! It's always good to have a backup option. I hide twenty bucks in a separate part of my wallet for just such situations.

Is that all they get for National Cat Day? Chintzy.

I didn't know it was National Cat Day! I think everyday should be National Cat Day! Obviously, I love my kitties....

My new favorite tv show is Escape to the Country. I am soooo ignorant of UK history and geography. I am more convinced than ever that i am a long lost English princess.