Couch 209: The Kummer Couch

Well, I am second guessing your therapist chihirochild. I think he's just awful and you should kick him to the curb.

Like a dead brown Christmas tree.

It was a busy weekend with sisters move. I barely got any of my own stuff done. She was also rather rude this morning but when she was being rude I just removed myself from the situation. I understand that she is going through a lot and that it was a hard weekend and she has a lot on her plate. However I won’t tolerate her snapping at me so I told her I was going to use the remainder of my day to get done stuff I needed to do and left. I told her if she needs help later in the week to feel free to reach out and left it at that.

I have work tomorrow and told my mom not to text me while there unless it’s an emergency. I’ve been distracted at work and it’s noticeable because I’ve been worried sick about her living with him. Now that part is over and hopefully she is safer now. She bought a video doorbell and I’m buying her a nest for inside the home that will sit on the TV stand right out in the open so he can’t say or do anything when he goes to pick up the baby.

Some may think or say it’s unnatural and I was too involved in this but my sister is literally the most important person in my life. She has been since the day she was born.

I have to go to bed soon. After tomorrow I’m off till Friday. I plan to find stuff to do. H will be working.

Chirio,

I’m lost for words regarding your therapist. I hope you strongly consider a new one.

LT..good job talking to H.
@@-I hope that creep stops showing up in your dreams. I can take him. I’ll come to your dreams and make him go away.
Also on No. 3-deleting some stuff was good. It’s a step forward. I still have all the therapist messages backed up on my computer.

I am watching a terrible version of the Sound of Music. Absolutely awful. And not just because there is no Julie Andrews.

You're a good sister AND you have good boundaries with her.

How's work going since kiddo had his eval?

Next up is American in Paris. It won't be as hard to bear - I am not a huge Gene Kelly fan so his version is not necessarily my favorite

Our team meeting with CPS in Tuesday morning and I have no one to talk to about it until Thursday when I see T. I'm worried about how I'll be able to handle that meeting and seeing a different dr that afternoon for a wound check.

Never fails. Wide awake the night before traveling.

I did take an Ativan so at least I’m not worried about the traveling.

I watched 3 or 6 episodes of colin firths pride and prejudice. I really should have used cliffs notes when i was in school. I would just skip stuff if i didnt understand it or like it.

Which explains why though you read Moby D i c k you know nothing about whaling.

Given the context, that he has a long history of r*ping you, you're NOT overreacting. At all.

I know I'm not often here anymore. I still like reading, hearing how y'all are, and leaving "thanks" here.

Big life stuff happened. I set deadlines with my partner on my move to his country. I recently told T we have to start the termination process. I'll PM you the link to my WordPress blog post if anyone wants the full details.

Yes, please, @QuietMind.

Take care, my friend.

Wow, that’s a lot! I’d like to read it, QM.

Thanks WFS. Once the side effect of being drowsy wore off from his med..things pretty much went back to the way they were before..though there has been subtle changes. Like now he apologizes for his behavior and on Friday he knocked the baby over (by accident) and he stopped to go over and pick him up and give him a hug to make sure he was okay. He’s still very rough though and very quick to react. He threw a toy at me on Friday but he missed. He did get sent to his room for that. I mean they still have to work on the dose. Right now he is taking the minimal amount. So we will see..well...I won’t. My job hunt is starting tomorrow. I now have enough money to renew my care.com membership for 6 months. It should be enough to land a family.

Quiet mind...I would love to read your blog.

Time to leave for work. At least today is only 8.5 hours. In at 8am done at 4:30pm.

More food...

When I was inpatient we set goals every morning and it helped me get things done. My goals for today are:
1) Finish the octopus cross-stitch
2) Go to the occupational health appointment and seem sane so they'll let me go back to work
3) Go to the gym

I'm working today after being off Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It's boring at work because not a lot of people are here and sales are slow typically this time of year so it feels like there is not much going on. Great, just means there's time for me to ruminate. I'm trying to not SH. I'm at 7 weeks no SH. But part of me wants to. No T appointments this week. Just feeling blah and lonely and depressed I guess. Hugs to anyone who wants one, Kit

Done done and done. Have been blessed by occ health and am going back to work for four hours tomorrow. Went to the gym (elliptical, weights). And here’s the cross stitch in all its finished gory:

That's awesome, Chihiro!

Beautiful work! I am glad Occ Health smiled on you. I hope you are able to be kind to yourself over the coming days.