[confused4ever]

I am still fighting the urges to harm myself. I feel like two people in a constant arguement, 24/7. I am hoping the pain will at least let up some, so I can get my footing back. I called my trauma T yesterday, was having such a bad day, but never heard back from her, I wish my T was here, at least he would help me re-group. But I am taking it moment by moment, and trying to stay busy, not stay in bed or on the couch all day. I took my daughter and came to a motel yesterday, just for the night to get away from my husband, we will head back today, I knew I couldn't stay there and listen to his stuff, and I couldn't leave on my own, I don't trust myself right now.

[pachyderm]

[Mouse_]

((Confused))

[SweetCrusader]

I am so sorry to hear of your struggle and pain. I don't know much of your story, so it's hard to know what to say, but I wanted to offer some caring to you.

SC/Angela

(((((Confused))))))))

I'm glad that you are doing things to make sure that you stay safe! I totally understand about your feelings of being two people in an arguement. I feel the same way! I hope you can get in to see your T soon. I'm glad you posted, keep yourself safe

Take care.

[sunrise]

I am glad you are safe with your daughter. Sometimes it can be helpful to get away. Good luck going back today.

(((((hugs)))))

[confused4ever]

Well I am back, not happy but have to come back so it doesnt' look like I left my kids and he can use that in court.
Coming back wasnt' easy or pretty, I guess some things we have to do for our kids.......

[MissCharlotte]

((Confused))

Are you safe there?

Are you safe at home? If not, please call a shelter.

Peace

[Kiya]

yeah! call a shelter and they can remove you and your kids if you are all endanger!!! That would be good - then you'd have it on PAPER that there is abuse and that will support YOU in the case for custody.

[confused4ever]

There isn't any physical abuse, only one episode ever, it is the emotional stuff, everything he says and acts and I can't take it, I should have a tough shell for it, but I don't. He tells me I am not good for the kids, and that i am prolonging all this stuff to make him look like the bad guy, I should just move on and get over everything....and then in front of the kids and family or friends that come over, he acts like the doting husband always asking me if I did this, or do I need help with that, did you forget this ........I feel like I can't breath right anymore........