Couch 236: NY PS Langston Hughes

Monterey Bay Aquarium have a spider crab cam and it is creepy af.

That is creepy!!

I haven't been there in many years but I loved it the couple of times I visited, cool place. At least, it was when I went!

That sounds like a useful session, LT. I'm sorry you have such a difficult decision to make about the concert and D's birthday party.

I hope you can make a decision you're comfortable with.

If I ever go back to therapy and don't want to leave on any particular day I'm going to remember the foot falling asleep thing.

Haha, I mean, what was he going to do, pick me up and fling me out the door? I do feel I have a whole list of stalling techniques, some more intentional and some accidental.

Thanks, Lost. I keep thinking I should list the ticket for sale (Dr. T seemed mystified that I can do that, but the site StubHub exists for that reason--sporting event tickets, too), but then not doing it.

Sounds like you had a very meaningful session today (read IST)--hope it felt helpful to you.

Got the estimate for the organizer for unpacking my garage, living room and kitchen/dining room. $5500. Jeez. That seems like a lot.

L and/or my feet fall alseep every session, but that's because we always sit on the floor. Double sessions are the hardest with feet falling asleep.

I kinda regret that I never got the chance to do a double session. I'd asked about the possibility one time and she said she'd have to think about it so I never brought it up again.

Why does everything have to be so complicated??? Tax thing...

Taxes in the U.S. are needlessly complicated. I hope you get it figured out soon!

I know they have to make money, but that is a crazy quote.

Perhaps a cleaning service could offer something similar for a fraction of the cost?

Marie Kondo also has a Netflix show and a book which could offer tips.

Drum circle was good again last night. He'd said last week that he wasn't gonna have one due to Easter this weekend, but then he sent out the Zoom meeting ID anyway. I am so glad he changed his mind, as a drum circle is a great way to end my work week.

I just noticed that it's after 1pm here. What used to be my session time. I am making progress though, I can no longer remember how many weeks it's been.

Does anyone else randomly try recipes from facebook? I made one today, the two-ingredient lemon bars. It's a can of lemon pie filling mixed with an angel food cake mix, baked at 350 F for 35 minutes. It's tasty, but not really what I was expecting.

I am stupid whiney **** and i need to pull myself together.

I have never seen recipes on facebook, but i dont look for them are they like a recommended thing like those terrible hack videos.

I think it's because I joined that instant pot group awhile back - maybe? Like because I'm in a group that shares recipes other recipes are suggested. Thankfully they are not links to those stupid hack videos! I hate those. These are links to recipe sites.

You're allowed to talk about what's effecting you without it being whining.

Just scheduled appointments for H & I to get a 2nd covid booster, per the advice of our doctor, for late next week.

I wrote Visa this morning, told her she wasn’t the therapist for this moment and said a bit about why and to cancel all future appointments. She thanked me for my honesty and said she was processing my feedback (=ignoring it, I’m sure).

Has anyone here ever been on or known anyone on a very high dose of steroids? Like 50, 60 mg? What were the side effects you/they experienced?

I've not been on that high of a dose for longer than a week but the side effects I experience are massive hunger and I'm quick to anger. It feels like when I used to have (unmedicated) high blood pressure and I over-exerted myself or was outside too long on a hot day.

I cannot control the anger; it just comes over me all of a sudden for no discernable reason and I lash out at whomever is nearby... even if that is a dog or a cat doing what pets do. It ends with me in tears because I *know* that none of it makes any sense.

Some people also get awful acne that cannot be treated and takes a long time to heal.

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I don't remember the dosages, but I did one of those packs where you start at the highest dose and taper off. I think it was a two week pack because of how vividly I recall the effects of it and it feels like it had to have been longer than a week. The steroid was dexamethasone. I don't recall any purely physical symptoms. At the higher doses I felt invincible and like I could do anything. I had energy. I felt great. Great is not a good enough word. I felt amazing. I wonder if this is how people feel when they're manic.

The taper part is something I would not care to repeat, however. As amazing as I had felt, I felt an equal level of awful coming down. It was truly horrible. There would have to be a really compelling reason for me to take that stuff again.

I’ve slept for two days straight.

The steroids are what my mother is on for kidney inflammation. Definitely not a two-week pack (I wish). Definite irritability and lashing out (at me—the animals are smart enough to read moods and make themselves scarce). Definitely not invincible-feeling. Definite muscle weakness. No appetite yet weight gain.