Couch 239: Cape Coral Couch

Thanks velcro, I talked to T on the phone last night. Hospital is an option but we didn't make that decision last night. I was able to promise her I could be safe last night. Today is my GP appointment. We will see what happens there
I am going to take a backpack with a couple of changes of clothes with me just in case I have to go from there to the hospital. If not, I will talk to T tonight and hopefully make a plan on what to do. I did give one of my bosses a heads up, just in case. I plan to go to work this morning, get a few things wrapped up just in case, and talk to my immediate boss so he I'd in the loop. I'm usually hospitalized when I don't need it, and am sent home when I do need it. But that is when I go to the ER. My T said we could look at voluntary admission. There's three hospitals I can go to (all about an hour and 15 minutes away) and I definitely have a preference so that might be the way to go. But we will see how the day goes
Hugs all....Kit

Thanks LT. Next session is supposed to be tonight but we will see what happens between then and now. Hugs Kit

"Everybody knows there is no Sanity Clause"?

Hugs, Kit. It seems like a good idea that you'll be prepared for whatever happens. I hope you're feeling better today and that your GP appointment goes well.

I hope you appointment went okay, Kit.

Can I ask the couch a question? Do any of you feel like a child inside and feel like you're behind emotionally? Do you hate that you've grown up and have an adult body, so everyone assumes you can handle adult issues? Is this normal/a human thing? Or is this part of my dysfunction? Like part of the BPD?

I do not feel like that. I like being an adult. I like that when I don't know something - I can find it out. Seriously that makes me very happy. Granted I never feel like I am in my 60s and I can be reduced to acting like silly goof from time to time-but it is fun

I generally feel like an adult, but I definitely have times when the child part comes out. Like I was recently describing to Dr. T how when he goes out of town or even has to switch to virtual, it's like I'm a little kid clinging onto his pants leg at daycare dropoff, begging him not to go. (And he said he got that feeling from me, too.)

The adult part of me can rationally think, "He needs and deserves a vacation, so that he can be a better therapist." But another part of me is like "Don't leave me!" And has trouble believing he'll come back. The same as if I were a little kid.

I know you might be talking about how someone is in general, rather than at times. But just sharing how it can come out sometimes for me.

I've heard before that in cases of childhood trauma, sometimes emotional development can sort of get stuck at the age that it was happening (or first happened). So it could be something like that, too.

Today is my parents' wedding anniversary. I hope that somehow, somewhere they are celebrating together for the first time in decades.

I hope so too.

Well, I might have good news? The previous apartments dropped their lawsuit. I don't know why. I assume they're going to take us to collections? Because I also found out today that they want $1k a month minimum to pay them back. It's good news for today at least.

Glad to hear that, Scarlet!

That's a lovely thought.

Thinking of you, Kit. I hope everything is okay.

My sickness has evolved into my eyes producing goop. Not fun.

Ugh, hope you feel better soon, Velcro!

And Kit, also thinking of you and hoping you're doing OK.

Today in completely random disclosures (tied to something we were discussing), Dr. T said, "My sister-in-law has been married for years, but still goes into the bathroom if she has to fart."

Hahaha...that's probably the best random disclosure ever.

Right? I figured the Couch would appreciate it.

If nothing else, it proves i am not t's SIL.

I mean, I kind of figured. But good to have proof!

We are having more flash flooding - it is a little scary to see just how bad this city is at handling run off water

Thunderstorms here. My parents (close to an hour away from me) haven't had power for a few hours.


Hope there's no major damage in your city.

How I wish you were, though.

This was me when I was married

I do generally still try to hide it if possible. My husband does not, and my daughter certainly doesn't!

It initially came up because H will talk to me while peeing in the bathroom with the door open, which bothers me for some unknown reason, but I feel odd saying something about it because I'm not sure *why* it bothers me. Dr. T has, in the past, mentioned how when you're married, you end up at a point where you're doing No. 2 with the door open, and I was like, "yeah, no, that's not for me" (and thinking maybe he'd revealed a bit too much about his own habits!).