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I think you're right EM that just having an appt might make me feel a little better. And LT I like what you said about how I'm not the same person I was when I started with L... this, not by a long shot. Way back then, I had no clue what I wanted out of therapy I just knew I was a mess. Right now, as broken as I feel, I have a pretty specific idea of what I want help with. Last edited by ArtieTheSequal; Jan 25, 2023 at 12:46 PM.. |
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#962
....and oh yeah, lunch time! woohoo! I get an hour to breathe and relax. I think I'll go take a hot shower and "wash off" the scolding from my boss.
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while I'm still at lunch i just pulled up my old timesheets and see that I haven't called in sick since 7/8/20... and that was only a partial day I don't even remember why. My boss made me cry this morning, probably cuz I'm just tired and worn out over everything lately. I wish I could have been like "dude. Why are you getting on my case? I am probably THE most dependable member of our team - why don't you take a look at when the last time was I called in sick and then tell me how many people on our team have that kind of record? Yeesh. One day of stats that is slightly below what you want and you're all over my butt. Go away."
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okay lunch is over artie will shut up now and get back to work.
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Oh artie that woulda been an "are you effin kidding me?!" from me. Like do you know who i am? They would need 5 people to replace you and they know it.
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Thanks una.
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(editing to try to shorten a little)This afternoon at work I had a bit of a breakdown, was a sobbing hot mess on the phone with my sup and lead. they managed to get me tomorrow off to rest. then I called my regular doc & left a message wanting to schedule an appt to see if she can prescribe me Sertraline cuz that's what I took in the past and am familiar with. Hoping they can get me in soon. I also did some more hard thinking about L - and decided to go ahead and ask for one session being clear that's all I'm asking for. Once I decided to ask, it still took me a good 40 minutes to hit the send button. Anyway, I'm going to see her on Friday morning. My head is of course a bit conflicted about this, but my heart is now feeling calm so I think it will be okay. She sent me a form to fill out so I can be clear on what I want from this session, so I am seeing that as a very good sign.
I feel like I can breathe a sigh of relief about everything now and I feel slightly removed from the sadness. Things are in motion to talk to my regular dr, I have a session scheduled with L that my heart very much wants, even if my head isn't sure, and I have 2 days off in a row to really rest. Maybe that little breakdown today was a good thing after all even though it felt pretty awful at the time. Last edited by ArtieTheSequal; Jan 25, 2023 at 11:56 PM.. |
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Thanks couch for listening to all my ranting.
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I didn't want both T and L when I started with them. With T, I was still hoping ex-T would take me back. I actually told T that I hated her, and she said she would help me find a new therapist. With L, I didn't want to attach to another person. And after the first time talking to her on the phone, I knew I was screwed.
I know I'm lucky that both times worked out for me. I found a really good therapist in T, and an even better one in L. And with both of them, we didn't start from the beginning, really. T knew I needed help asap, so we spent half the session on intake and the other half on skills. With L, we weren't supposed to be long-term, so we did the intake in one session. All that to say, starting over doesn't mean you have to go over your entire history again. After the intake, you should be able to choose where you want to go, what you want to work on. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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Thanks Kit, hugs to you too!
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aww thanks willowtigger! I'm feeling cautiously optimistic this morning after sleeping late, knowing I'll be seeing L tomorrow. I do feel a little silly now about that whole breakdown at work yesterday and wonder if maybe I overreacted by reaching out to her. I am not going to sit here and second-guess myself though, because as soon as I got her response that yes of course I can come in for a tune up session, I felt a calm settle over me that I haven't been feeling for the last month or so and it felt good.
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Now I need to go to the pet store for kitty litter and maybe some new treats for my little loves, then come back home and do some laundry and then I shall spend the rest of the day resting on the couch reading.
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*goes shopping for artie and brings everything back*
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Exhausted!
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I had a restful day. The pet store was out of the self-refill kitty litter so I have to go back tomorrow but I went next door to Ross and bought a really cute new shirt, just for fun as I hardly ever buy clothes and it was only $8.99. Will probably wear it tomorrow when I go see L, as it is super soft and comfy. Between kicking back on the couch reading today, I got 2 loads of laundry done. Having today off was just the ticket and tomorrow should help even more (especially since our mandatory overtime at work has been extended until the end of February now).
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i slept late this morning so now i'm not tired
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I hope it goes well with L today, Artie!
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