Couch 245: STELLA!

You guys, I'm sorry if I'm making too big of a deal out of all this medical stuff. It's just that I'm not used to it - a fact for which I am very grateful. In the grand scheme of my 61-year-life I shouldn't be making a big deal about any of it. I suppose I've always been better at typing about things than speaking about things regardless of what they are.

Hugs, Artie. You definitely don't need to apologize for this, and you aren't making too big of a deal out of it. It's scary! It's not like you're on here talking about a hangnail or a papercut. Did you maybe get the message when you were younger that you should minimize medical concerns? (I know I did.)

I hope you'll be able to meet with L to discuss this and that she's helpful.

I agree with LT, Artie. You aren't making a big deal out of your health issues. There could be serious outcomes. Health stuff is scary, and you don't need to be alone in it.

Those british tarts

I like their custard tarts and also Flapjacks (not pancakes -they are oat bars that are delicious)

I have been eating crumpets by the tuffetful.

Those british tarts!

Are you flirting with lemon and moo again?

Are you flirting with lemon and moo again?

Is my cossetted egg jealous? You know i only have a gullett for you.

You guys, I'm sorry if I'm making too big of a deal out of all this medical stuff. It's just that I'm not used to it - a fact for which I am very grateful. In the grand scheme of my 61-year-life I shouldn't be making a big deal about any of it. I suppose I've always been better at typing about things than speaking about things regardless of what they are.

Hi everybody. I caught up on the couch. HUGS to Artie and Scarlet and Lemon and Una and anyone I missed that wants one.

Therapy went well last week. My therapist said I talked a lot more than usual and I was very vulnerable with her. (These are good things I presume.) And on Monday last week I went to the Walk In Crisis Center at my T's urging. It was actually pretty good. I have been scared of going there but it was pretty nice. I waited around a while (but I would have waited a while at the ER too) and the T or Social Worker or whoever she was that I talked to was nice and empathetic. She said I could choose to stay the night there if I wanted to but by the time I saw her my crisis was kind of passing (voices being quieter and stuff) so I opted to go home with my parents. So now I have another resource.

Also my sister said if I ever need to come live with her and her new husband I am welcome to (like if/when my parents are passed away which hopefully is a long time in the future). I was kind of worried about that so it's good to have a backup plan in case I can't do it on my own!

Texted my therapist today to check on her dog. She said she is much better. yay! We talk again on Wednesday. Except for her text tomorrow confirming my appointment for Wed.

HUGS to anyone who wants Kit

Artie just a question, but why do you think you minimise what you're going through?

Health issues would be hard to deal with for anyone at any age.

You don't have to swallow your pain. Your pain is real and these are uncharted waters.

You need to have the space to express yourself, which ties in with being seen. You are important enough to take up space in this world and this little old couch.

I am of course the sort that over apologizes instead of just asking for reassurance. Which like I said, comes from a long-ago-instilled belief that I'm just being a baby if I need reassurance so it's easier to apologize for carrying on instead of just asking for reassurance. Let me try.

"I'm feeling a little overwhelmed and kinda scared about the doctor saying I need surgery and would like some reassurances if anyone has any to spare." Like that?

I think the second way is clearer- does it feel any different to you to put it like that? You get to do you -so you of course are the final chooser.