[SingDanceRunLife]

Just came home from today's [much needed] session.

It was good. It was good that I had it because I didn't have one last week.

We talked more about my OCD, when I think I my depression started, I took another depression inventory and I guess it was a little lower than the first time, but not much...Then she asked if I had had any meltdowns since I last saw her (the answer was yes)...So, we talked about that, and that brought up anxiety. I took an inventory for that, and as soon as she glanced down, my T said that she could see I was definitely in the clinical range. It turned out to be moderate for adults, and that's pretty high since I'm still a teenager...So, my T wants me to go see my doctor because she thinks a low-dose antidepressant would be good to help with depression, anxiety, and OCD. So, I guess I'll be going to the doctor soon.

That's about it.

[MissCharlotte]

(((singdacerun)))'

I hope your doctor can help you feel some relief from your depression. You are very brave and show a lot of courage in pursuing your needs. It sounds like your T cares and is responsive to you.

Good luck.

Peace

[Perna]

I'm glad you've got a plan and a T helping you with your struggles.

[SingDanceRunLife]

Yeah...I'm open to basically anything if it means that I'll start feeling better so, we'll see.

[SingDanceRunLife]

More info:

My mom called my T and my doctor today.

T gave her some more information on my status (that I'm doing well, have a strong sense of self, there are 2 official diagnoses - mild OCD and anxiety)...She also said that she now thinks that instead of being actually depressed that I might have an Adjustment Disorder with a depressed mood, but she wants to wait and see before making a solid diagnosis of either.

My doctor didn't have all that much to say. She said that I would have to come in for a well child visit before we could do anything on the medication front...But my mom convinced her to do them at the same time, and got an appointment scheduled for the week after next.

[Kiya]

"Adjustment disorder".... they used to just call it "teenhood". Of course you're adjusting.... or trying to... or trying not to. that's kind of how it goes, eh? it's hard being a teen, let's face it. teens want freedom, they can't have as much as they want, there's too many responsobilities, and yet not the right ones, there' s too many choices that they don't get to make, not enough sleep in the day, and far too many expectations from adults.
All that even before ya get to all the other stuff; OCD and the like.
best to you. kiya

[SingDanceRunLife]

Haha. Yeah. That is the life of a teenager.

[SingDanceRunLife]

My session today:

We talked about all sorts of stuff...But mostly the people I hang out with, how I basically just got rejected by one of my "friends", and how I find it very difficult to be vulnerable and open with people which makes it really hard to become close with them.

It was pretty good. There were some times that I really wished I could leave because I really didn't feel like talking, but, that's OK.

On Monday I'm going to see my doctor for an evaluation for medication. I'm still not sure how I feel about that.