T Took Charge of the Session

God, I love it when T takes charge of the session. It's such a turn-on, LOL. Oddly, I'm not feeling the intense emotions at the time. Nor am I obsessing. So, I've figured out that I'm totally bored. I need something really thrilling to excite me because I'm so used to feeling so intensely. He asked if I had trouble feeling "normal". I guess I do. This is when I get into trouble spending, etc.

T started talking about something I could do to make bathtime less stressful with my child (long story). He started to list a few things and tried to get my input but I was totally not into it.

I told T that I was really fidgety and he asked me if I wanted to change chairs, so I went from the couch to the chair. He asked me if I wanted his, but I don't think I'm ready to sit on the King's Throne just yet. So I sat in the chair and he sat on the couch. Why does that matter? I don't know. Just thought I'd share that we were playing musical chairs. I got caught when the music went off (the timer Dinged) and had to leave at the 50 minute mark. But I was able to leave without inundating him with billions of questions aimed at buying one more second of his time.

I then asked him something to the effect if he was going to be with me forever, full well knowing the answer. He redirected me back to the bathtime with Bonzo story. I then noticed that what I was trying to do was to get him to say something to upset me to I see if I was still alive since I haven't felt the intense emotions in over a week. He told me that these little things are what I am missing in my life and the things on which I need to work and build.

So, wanting to win patient of the week (and actually wanting bathtime to be less harrowing), I went to the dollar store and picked up some extra bath things for bath bonanza night. It went over well, I might add. I fully executed his plan with precision and grace.

I have to say, I've really learned a lot about myself this past month. I wonder if this feeling of the absence of intense emotions is going to stay. I'm just not sure what to make of it. I guess stay tuned . . .

Oh darn. I love intense emotion! Especially with T"s are involved.

DING

Sooo isn't changing chairs fun? It makes for an interesting session that is otherwise boring right?

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You know Sol, I realized recently that I didn't have to be mad at T in order to hang onto him between sessions. Maybe that's the only way we know how to attach?

Yeah, I agree. It's great when they take over and we can sit back and relax.

peace

sol Hippo icon =)

hmmmmmmmm... those are good learnings about trying to get more of his time, trying to get him to get you angry... all good stuff!

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