Saw a different side of p-doc tonight

In spite of my horrible therapy week, my visit with p-doc was awesome. I've never given her a chance in the past because she and my T don't see eye to eye.

I had this visit scheduled a month ago and when I got there, I said I need to talk do you have some time. She did!

I told her my feelings about my therapy appts and told her that I needed to hear from an objective listener what she thinks.

I was quite surprised. She was very sweet and didn't rush herself or me like usual.

She said, and I love this, what I am hearing is that you would like T to acknowledge that although unintentional, he has a role in contributing to your pain and that he will work with you so you can separate the past from the present.

Yes! Now why can't he say this to me?

Sometimes it is very helpful to have an outside viewpoint, especially when it comes from another helping professional.

Perhaps, you can mention this to your T, if not in words but in writing. While your p-doc and T might not get along, your p-doc had an insight that your T will have to respect.

Good luck.

She was much more cognizant of my feelings. But I can't help thinking if I spent more time with her, got all attached I'd be right where I am now.

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lauren_helene said:
She was much more cognizant of my feelings.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">That must feel so good. I can see why you would want that with your T too.

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But I can't help thinking if I spent more time with her, got all attached I'd be right where I am now.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">That makes attachment sound so negative. It isn't always that way.... Secure attachment is a fine thing.

I wonder how much your newfound connection with your psychiatrist is 'in spite' of your having a disconnected week with your therapist, or how much it is 'in virtue' of? Sometimes it can be hard to feel connected to two different people when those two different people don't seem to see eye to eye. Sometimes it can feel like we need to 'take sides' in order to experience a connection at all. Like if we don't 'take sides' then we will not be able to have a connection with either.

Just a thought...

I'm glad you had a nice moment with your psychiatrist. Sounded like they were very insightful and validating.