Should I write this down for T?

<font color="purple">Well, I'm all better now from the previous...episode...thing...that I was having this afternoon. I was wondering if I should write everything down and show it to my T next session (which I think is like a week from now anyways) I can't help but think if I did she'd do her usual "Well some people your age...." or "Well, the truth is I don't know why...." because I really want a solid answer AND I'm pretty sure that it is NOT normal teen stuff to drift in and out of being a kid, and having your thoughts all jumbled up to the point were you start feeling mildly hysterical and leads to waves of panic attacks. Seriously. Unless I'm missing out on something here. And it doesn't help that I don't even know what happened myself or what it was even caused by. </font>

<font color="purple">Well, I just finished writing some of what happened today in my PC blog today- if you have any input then can you please comment (if not on the entry itself, then here at PC please, I'm going to make a thread about it at Clyde's Corner </font>

I think you should write it down. Its your experience and that makes important. I think that you sound very smart. I also think u should tell your therapist how u feel when she says those kinda remarks. I love the way you have such insight into your internal world.

I agree with minime!!!! and I'm glad you started to write it down. Even if you don't see T for a while the writing may help you deal with the feelings now. Also, when you see T you won't struggle to remember how you felt and what you needed to talk about because it will all be on paper. Good Luck!

<font color="purple"> My next session is next Wednesday. I...don't really know. I mean, I know it would be the right thing to tell her, but I'm feeling just to scared and small right now to think about the option. No clue how she is going to react, but so far I don't think she is very sensitive to my feelings, I dunno. I guess I just don't trust her enough.

Geez, I feel like I should have never (quite happily) told her that I was an INFP because every time I raise an issue that's been bugging me about my percieved increasing isolation- she just writes it off that introverts are like that. And you know, that's true, and I do like to be alone, but being alone =/= feeling alone, you know? I tell her about my moodiness and it's just teen stuff. I tell her that I might have had body memories for years that didn't strike me as that until now, and even wrote down what might of triggered it and her response was basicly the long way of saying "I have no clue". It may be very well true- but it's annoying and doesn't really help.

You know, I rant about this online, but every time I have a session, it seems nice enough and can't really bring myself to say that I don't want her as a T, or even the style of therapy being used altogether. </font>

Her comments seem quite invalidating. But yet you stay, so you must be getting something? Or is it just too hard to move on, so you stay?

This may seem like an odd comparison, but at some point in my therapy, my T asked me why I was staying in the marriage. It seemed from what I was telling him that it wasn't filling my needs in any way. So he was just openly curious. In response, that week I made up a list of why I wanted to stay in the marriage and why I wanted to leave. I quickly wrote up 26 reasons why I wanted to end the relationship. They just flowed off my pen. Then I struggled quite a bit to compose my list of 6 reasons to stay. That's all I could think of. Seeing the lists side by side was really a revelation to me. I think this exercise helped convince me I really didn't want to stay.

Maybe you could do the same for your T. Write down the reasons to leave and the reason to stay. Then compare. Maybe this will make the decision clearer.