Trepidation: what’s the next step?

Trepidation: what’s the next step?
After treating me for depression over the past six (6) months my primary care physician wants me to be evaluated/treated by a Psychiatrist and possibly start into therapy with a Psychologist. He feels my depression and life situations are worsening and need to be addresses concurrently by professionals. Obviously I trust my PCP as I’ve been his patient for almost 14 years, however I question my own ability and or inability towards dealing with mental health professionals. Since hearing his recommendation my moods have been cycling so rapidly they are almost uncontrollable. Which doesn’t even touch on the fact my husband is 100% against my being under the care of a Psychiatrist.
I accept the fact I am experiencing episodes of major depression aggravated by anxiety so denial isn’t a factor in my situation. I know all too well what I am up against when appraising my mental health. However, I can’t convey to myself the need for professional counseling. The trepidation I experience while simply thinking about entering Psychotherapy almost brings me to a panicked state.
With the hope of desensitizing my fear and ways of thinking/feeling my PCP suggested I join a support group. When I was unable to join a local group He then suggested I try an online support group one of which I would not experience ’face to face’ encounters. (a safer environmental setting). In view of joining this site I felt so overwhelmed by fear that it took me weeks of deliberation before joining. As my PCP stated; I have been so profoundly effected by past encounters with professionals and support persons that I have not allowed myself the opportunity to heal my life’s psychological and emotional wounds…and he’s right. And now I realize the impact the people from my past have had and ingrained into my emotional well-being. I agree with my PCP it is indeed time to heal because the passing of time in and of itself does not heal all wounds.
All of which brings me to this post, I’ve taken the first step towards reconditioning myself and overcoming my apprehension by joining this group. I am determined to overcome my current situation but I am at a loss as to how to proceed. Any suggestions on what step two, three, and four might be???

Congrats on taking this step to reach out to a support group on-line !! I think you will find lots of useful info on this site. Perhaps after some time you will discover what you need to take the next step. I don't know what that next step is for you - I think that you will know it when the time is right.

Hang in there - every step forward no matter the size of the step is a step in the right direction.

Step 2 could be a hypnotist who could possibly help you manage your fears about contacting a psychotherapist.

Step 3 should be a psychiatrist who can properly evaluate medication for your depression and anxiety.

Step 4 should be the psychotherapist.

If you had a sore throat would you see a foot doctor? If you had cancer would you treat it with an on-line support group? Just think of it as going to the specialist that you need. You deserve to see someone who specializes in your health issues.

Thanks for your replies.
If you care to know the ’next step’ was literally placed in my lap. I was taken to ER last night for an angina attack (thankful that’s all it was) and was extensively evaluated while I was there.
As soon as my PCP found out I was in the ER he requested a Psych consult. At first I was quite angry with him but then I realized the opportunity was at hand so he pursued it. At least he gave me five minutes notice before the Psychiatrist walked in the door and I had already been sedated so that helped also. Life has it’s ways of unfolding doesn’t it?!? Kind of a ‘throw the kid in the water to learn how to swim’ situation. After the three hour intervention (and a total of 8 hours in ER) I was allowed to leave the ER with new meds and a follow-up appointment for tomorrow. Thanks to my cardiologists recommendation that I be allowed to return home where I could truly relax. The one and only time I’ve been thankful for being under the cardiologist care!!
So, tomorrow brings new horizons, wish me luck, or maybe you should wish the Psychiatrist luck…we’ll see….Alonian

I'm thankful you are ok too...

Best of luck @ the psychiatrist's office!!!

Did you get PRN meds? (ones you can take as needed) If so, take them with you in case you get anxious there with him... nerves can really fry a session...

Good luck!

Thanks for the 'best of luck wish!
Yes I did receive PRN meds and yes I did take them before the appointment...I just wish they would have helped more
I didn't fare too well during the follow-up appt. In all actuality I fell apart and had to be sedated once again.
The P seems to be adept enough in his field, kind and compassionate as well. So we've scheduled future appointments, started a medication regimen, and discussed my diagnosis'.
The bombardment of emotion I've experienced has truly tested my abilities. Yet as stated by the P better to feel overwhelmed than to not feel at all. Thanks again for your reply...Alonian