bad session, told her everything about my anger etc .... she says it is rage, i am entitled to feel this way but we are working on chanelling it in a different way ....so i hope you all understand i've been aggressive yes .... triggered yes...sorry if i hurt anyone whilst i was venting, the subjuect of paedophiles gets me so ......

i think maybe some of us have to beg to differ in our opinions ......

anyway, i had physical symptoms for the first time ever today just before therapy, i was shaking, could hardly move my legs or arms, felt wierd ... but i just have a migraine now ..... i have to go lie down in a dark room ..... please try and understand that we are all at different stages in recovery and feel differently in some situations .... if there has been trauma in ones life we are entitled to be angry, hurt, etc etc .....the only time i lose it really bad is if i'm triggered .... but, like the mods say, there is an ignore button.

hopefully from now on at least I wont be making any more aggresive posts .....

sorry to go on ... Jinny xx

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I am sorry that you are feeling bad, I also suffer from Migraines, I hope it clears up soon for you.

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It's also natural to try to avoid intense feelings of sadness by showing anger instead.

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It's also natural to try to avoid intense feelings of sadness by showing anger instead.

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This is really interesting, because I keep finding that when I can get to the deep place underneath my anger, there IS sadness. Sadness is a new emotion for me.

((((((((((((((((((((((( jinny )))))))))))))))))))))) Be kind to yourself.

earthmamma, strange you should say that, because i gave my t allthe stuff i'd been posting, and in order and she said the rage was instantly followed by deep grief ..... grief for a lost childhood, my grandad, and my mum (who is still alive but choses not to get help, believe everything about the abuse i suffered at the hands of her lover and her, and therefore is out of my life).......

there IS deep sadness, and i've always avoided that i suppose until now ..... i have a feeling of being powerless and not in control right now.... but i will go thru this and come out the otherside ......i have to for my sake and my familys ..... thankyou so much for your replies and support.

Kerry xxxx