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Old Jul 08, 2008, 03:36 PM
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I'm 15 and go to high school...
My mother can not afford a T so I see one in school...
I really like her and she is really nice...
She also works part-time out of school but I can not see her because of the whole money thing...
So now it's summer...
And she doesn't work in my school over the summer...
So I am freaking out because I wont get to see her, and I just don't know what to do...
Well...
There is this other guys that does work at my school over the summer....
But I don't like him...
He never say my name right and he always gets my age wrong...
I don't feel comfortable talking to him AT ALL...
But because I'm a minor and my mother unfortunately has power over me, she signed papers so that I could talk to him, and made an appointment for me to talk to him...
I don't want to though...
And I fear that it will be a waste of time because I'm known for not talking...
When I meet people I see auras around them...
I don't know why, but he has a blue aura which was already how I felt about him-as though I couldn't talk to him-[My regular T is baby green]
I'm so stressed out and I feel as though maybe people are seeing me as being selfish and stubborn, but I don't wanna be seen that way...
I don't know what to do and I just feel lie going in a corner and dying...
Please help me.... I feel like I'm going through a crisis I feel like I'm going through a crisis I feel like I'm going through a crisis
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 04:21 PM
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I am sorry that you are going through this difficult time. It sounds like the best thing to do is to try to talk to this guy and maybe it will help. When school starts back up then maybe you can see the one you want to see, summer won't last forever. I feel like I'm going through a crisis I feel like I'm going through a crisis I feel like I'm going through a crisis I feel like I'm going through a crisis
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 04:38 PM
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Thank you...
I think that I will just talk about my day maybe if I do decide to talk...
I miss my T so much though and I really don't usually care about money, but in this case I really wish that I had some...
But you're right, summer won't last forever so hopefully I will make it through to fall...
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 04:41 PM
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 04:49 PM
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Toniella, I'm sorry that you can't have more control over the situation. Will get to go back to the T you like in September?

Your post struck me because I tend to experience my emotions through colors and shapes, as well. For me, if I sense something in orange, it is very uncomfortable to me. Deep reds and browns are my comfort colors.

Maybe if you don't feel like talking to him, you can use your gift for colors and draw what you feel. I know it helps me. I feel like I'm going through a crisis
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 04:58 PM
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Thank you for the hug...
I like hugs...
They are very comforting...
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 05:09 PM
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Yeah...
I don't really not having control...
It bothers me quite a bit...
And yes I will get to see her again in September, thank goodness...
See reds and blues are uncomfortable to me...
Green is my comfort colour...
And the lightet the green the more comfort...
I really like your idea of drawing what I feel alot...
I think I will definately do that...
Thank you
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 05:41 PM
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I'm sorry you feel so uncomfortable with him. I know what it is like to try to talk to people you don't like =(

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Old Jul 08, 2008, 06:14 PM
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I love that you see colors in the world, and around people. I also love that you're reaching out for support when you need it!!

I know it may sound silly...but I had a thought for you.

If green is your comfort color, and you see blue around the counselor -- try wearing or bringing something yellow to the meeting. The yellow will offset his blue, and make the whole session into something more green.

(I'm quite connected to colors myself.)

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Old Jul 08, 2008, 08:51 PM
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That too is a good idea...
But...
I dont think I own anything yellow...
And since I dont have my T anymore, I need all the help I can get...
So thank you SpottedOwl...
Your words are greatly appreciated...
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Old Jul 08, 2008, 09:03 PM
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I'm sorry you feel so uncomfortable with him. I know what it is like to try to talk to people you don't like =(

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((Toniella))

If you don't feel like talking then don't. Just go and sit and breathe.

Don't despair. Your Mom cares, otherwise she wouldn't have signed you up for therapy--so she is at least trying. Maybe you can catch her at a good moment and speak to her about this situation. You know, timing is everything. Don't pick the moment when she is exhausted because she just got home from work. Wait for the perfect moment, maybe a weekend morning? Just make her a cup of tea, and act really mature and tell her you need to talk to her and get her advice. Then tell her how you really feel about this therapist and that you can't communicate with him. Try to speak with her without falling apart in tears.

Maybe you can offer to help your mother pay the therapist's bill or otherwise cut down the cost. Can you call the other therapist and see if she will see you at a reduced rate? Many T's will do this. Can you make some money babysitting or doing yard work to help pay the bill? Maybe you can barter the fee with her?

Take teeny, tiny baby steps. Don't worry too much about the future. Take each moment as it comes.

Good luck and peace to you.

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Old Jul 09, 2008, 11:36 AM
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((Toniella))

If you don't feel like talking then don't. Just go and sit and breathe.

Don't despair. Your Mom cares, otherwise she wouldn't have signed you up for therapy--so she is at least trying. Maybe you can catch her at a good moment and speak to her about this situation. You know, timing is everything. Don't pick the moment when she is exhausted because she just got home from work. Wait for the perfect moment, maybe a weekend morning? Just make her a cup of tea, and act really mature and tell her you need to talk to her and get her advice. Then tell her how you really feel about this therapist and that you can't communicate with him. Try to speak with her without falling apart in tears.

Maybe you can offer to help your mother pay the therapist's bill or otherwise cut down the cost. Can you call the other therapist and see if she will see you at a reduced rate? Many T's will do this. Can you make some money babysitting or doing yard work to help pay the bill? Maybe you can barter the fee with her?

Take teeny, tiny baby steps. Don't worry too much about the future. Take each moment as it comes.

Good luck and peace to you.

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I hate to say it but my mother really doesn't care about me...
She cares what other people will think, which is the only reason why she wants me to get better...
She says that I'm a reflection upon her...
I even actually have tried to talk to her about this but she doesn't care...
Right now there's no babysitting to be done, trust me I've already looked...
And I've been trying to get a job but nobody has hired me yet... I feel like I'm going through a crisis
It's just so hard and I don't know what to do...
I miss my T so much, she made me feel so good about myself...
*sigh*
I don't know...
I'm just worried that something will just go.....
wrong...
But thank you for your support and ideas...
They are good...
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