[Kiya]

T used EMDR with me jst a lil last night for the first time. I've now been with her a year...well almost, next month. I've had some not good experiences with it in the past, but last night i processed some trauma stuff and was shifted into a really painful place. T asked about the EMDR that I had had and said she'd like to try some with me if i'd be ok with that to move the fear and trauma so i am not stuck with it.
She had me watch her as she moved her hand back and forth (i feel like I've written this somewhere, but I can't finf it in PC for my life) and zigzaged my eyes to follow her motions. It felt pretty strange to do that and made me feel dizzy and cause discomfort in my eyes, but I have to say that it helped me get back to myself.
I was not able to hold that once I got home and released some of the grief, but I am thankful that I was not 10 when I left there.... like last session when I was 8 upon leaving.

[Simcha]

Originally Posted by Kiya

T used EMDR with me jst a lil last night for the first time. I've now been with her a year...well almost, next month. I've had some not good experiences with it in the past, but last night i processed some trauma stuff and was shifted into a really painful place. T asked about the EMDR that I had had and said she'd like to try some with me if i'd be ok with that to move the fear and trauma so i am not stuck with it.
She had me watch her as she moved her hand back and forth (i feel like I've written this somewhere, but I can't finf it in PC for my life) and zigzaged my eyes to follow her motions. It felt pretty strange to do that and made me feel dizzy and cause discomfort in my eyes, but I have to say that it helped me get back to myself.
I was not able to hold that once I got home and released some of the grief, but I am thankful that I was not 10 when I left there.... like last session when I was 8 upon leaving.

(((((((((((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))))))))))

Where you been!?
The very thought of myself doing EMDR makes me cringe. I would not personally be willing to do it, but then again my "trials and tribulations" are different than yours are. EMDR seems to be helpful to some people. I don't know enough about it to know if it has long term benefits over less hypnotic forms of therapy.

I have faith in your T. She really sounds like she has herself together by your descriptions and reports on your progress. I'm rather critical of most therapists, doctors, etc., and I don't know yours personally, but everything seems to point to a lady that is professional and caring in one awesome package.

Stick with it Kiya. Let her know if it ever makes you uncomfortable and you want to take a break.
Still got Bene?

[Kiya]

((((((simcha))))))))) I do have bene =) I think I'll have him for a long, long time
I don't seem to be posting as much, or even being able to read as much and respond. I guess i'm full up. @_@
I do have faith in T most times. =) sometimes i feel mis understood and angry, but I usually come around and see that T doesn't mean to hurt me and usually doesn't even know that I felt hurt.
We didn't go throug all my word of the day pictures because i was already in too bad a place. I worry that I will have to bring it up next time - i don't want to be the one to bring it up. But maybe I will bring in more, too.
The EMDR was really strange feeling, but felt ok and right-timing... ya know?
I have been listening to her story on tape quite a bit. Each time, i hear something different.
Hope you are doing alright. Kiya

Originally Posted by Simcha

Where you been!?
I have faith in your T. She really sounds like she has herself together by your descriptions and reports on your progress...everything seems to point to a lady that is professional and caring in one awesome package.

[splitimage]

I've done EMDR a bunch of times, and although it's really intense and a little disconcerting at first, I've found it super helpful at processing trauma stuff. I find visual cues very disstressing, the first time my T did it with me she used a light bar and I had to track the moving lights with my eyes and I wound up throwing up. Now she gives me these little paddles to hold in each hand that alternately vibrate. It seems to be the bilateral stimulation that matters more than how it's acheived. The only thing I'd be careful about is that if you have problems with dissociation, EMDR can make dissociation worse, unless the T is really careful about bring you back and grounding you as the session is winding up.

if you do decide to do it again, I hope you get as much benefit from it as I do.

--splitimage

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by splitimage

The only thing I'd be careful about is that if you have problems with dissociation, EMDR can make dissociation worse, unless the T is really careful about bring you back and grounding you as the session is winding up.

Thanks - that's really helpful to know - and any other tidbits that help out dissociatives/DIDs . I did have some issues tracking the moving hand back and forth - made me pretty dizzy and ended up shaking my head like i had water in my ears =) but it did bring me out of being 10 and in a bad place. Sometimes T can tell when I've dissoc, and sometimes not.... I'll have to try and be mindful of that. Kiya