Things for the past 3 months have been horrible I got a new job it doesnt keep me busy I can do WHATEVER i want, and with that power my T who's office is a couple blocks down I go down and see her on my "off day sessions" she just comes out of her office and says "hey whatcha doin" with a nice tone and if she doesn't have anyone she sits down with me in the waiting room or invites me into her office and we talk.......well i saw her wednesday for session and monday , tuesday, before that and then again today....when i went to see her today she asked "did therapy not help yesterday?" normally i can resist not coming to her office the day after therapy......then I skipped class ( i work at my college ) I went to go tell her so she could kick me in the butt ( not really but pep talk me ) and as I got out of the car I saw her coming out of her office door with a friend.....she opened her car door and me not knowing what to do I just stood their....she looked up and saw me and said "hey whatcha doin"? I said oh nothing its fine, have a good weekend".........and got in my car as did she...I then began sobbing saying to myself "she's gonna give up on me...over and over....I even considered suicide.....anyway.....even tho she has given no indication she would give up on me I feel she may.....

help......

[ziggy1]

Moonkin your T sounds very nice. Some T's when seen in public don't
even acknowledge you as a patient unless your seeing them by appt.

What makes you think or gives you the idea that she's going to give up
on you? It sounds like to me that she is really interested in how you are
doing.

Maybe its just your own inner thoughts? Sometimes I tend to read into
situations and realize later that I was just panicking.

Moon as far as suicide, PLEASE, call a hot-line or talk with someone here
you can trust or are closer too! Trust me its not the answer, I know from
personal experience.

Your bright, educated and sometimes it takes times to work and figure
things out about ourselves......!

Your always welcome to Pm me if you have those thoughts...there are
many suicide sites on line to you can participate in.

[gimmeice]

((((((((((( Moonkin ))))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are going through this, it doesn't sound like she said or done anything that makes me think that she is giving up. If she was with a friend she couldn't really just come up to you. Please don't give up on yourself, you are worth the effort. Maybe this need to see her is something you could discuss with her at your next session, or if you have her email address you could write her an email about sometimes it's just easier to type out your feeling then it is to say them. Even if you don't have her email you could write her a note and give it to her when you see her, it's very important that she knows how you feel, it will help her with your treatment.

[emilyjeanne]

Moonkin,

I hear your pain. If you feel suicidal go to the emergency room. It is important to keep yourself safe.

However, I think that you need to discuss with your T therapy boundaries. It feels to me that you are setting yourself up for a let down if she is not available when you go there. Therapists usually do not allow their clients to show up at their office without an appointment. If you feel you need more time with her, schedule an extra session. Part of therapy is to learn to separate and continue to feel attached.