2 years and what?

((Sunny))

Another thought from your post.

I do think I need to slow down. Thank you. As I re-read your comments that just jumped out at me. It has been what I go back to over and over again as I work through trauma. It just doesn't work for me when we barrel through stuff.

I think I'm going to bring in paint samples this week and ask his opinion on my color scheme.

((river))

thanks. You know, it's really good to reflect because clearly there is not one answer to this dilemma. I am in a crummy place.

But what I think is really going on is (1) we moved too fast in therapy (2) T went away right after a rupture and to my inner child it felt like a punishment and (3) His personal life experience does not include a miserable irish catholic childhood.

I hope you can find your way back. I am writing so much it is my source of solace.

(((((((( MissCharlotte ))))))))))

2 years and what? 2 years and you are making great progress! You are aware of the whys and hows of your feelings, that this is about working through. It feels yucky I know, Iv'e been at this stage, but once you come through this you'll have even more insight and a better relationship with T to boot. Tell T to slow down if you need to, but keep going!

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thanks, yes, it feels like what I'm doing now is helping to strengthen me and that, in turn may enable me to go back.

Its difficult tho, its like bein in labour and having to argue with the midwife!!

but as they say, who ever said life would be easy.
and i think thats right, with profs if they have a different life expereince, thier ability for empathy can be hampered, maybe thats just another of these tough, tricky realities, but which sometimes can get too much, and you have to bail out, this time I did.