I think T disappeared. I'm so worried.

I'm getting really worried.

I had my session with T on tuesday at 1:00. We were talking about my recent insurance problems. She told me that she was going to call my insurance company and figure stuff out. When the session was over, she said, "i have a client now, so i'll call the insurance company after that." I had work at 5:00, so she said she'd give me a call between 3 and 5 to "get it figured out by today." Depending on what the insurance comany said determined whether or not i would see her friday. She said we would set something up when we talked later.

Well, 3:00 came and went. then 4:00. Then at 4:45 when i left for work i called her cell phone and left a message. I went to work with my phone in my pocket, checking it multiple times. I got off work, still no call from T. I was confused. Little by little i got more and more upset, untill by 10:00 that night i was in full out tears and breaking down. I called her cell phone again at that time and left a message sobbing, saying that i was so upset she didn't call and it made me feel like i wasn't important enough to remember. Then i fell asleep.

Now we're at wednesday. I was depressed all day. I figured she'd be back in the office so maybe i'd get a call from her. Nothing. I went to work that night with my phone by my side. Still nothing. Going to bed wednesday night was the same as tuesday night, cried myself to sleep wondering where is T.

So now i'm at thursday. I've been so depresesd i slept right through my apt with my pdoc. i don't want to go anywhere or do anything. everytime my phone rings and its not her i die a little inside. I don't understand. She says "ill call you between 3 and 5" and then i don't hear from her for 2 days. and one of my messages i was obviously UPSET. I'm worried something happened. I know she works thursday nights, so i'm thinking if she doesn't call me on her way home from work (she returns her calls a lot at that time) then i'm going to call the office and leave a message. Remember, we don't have anything set up for friday yet. and i flat out told her that despite what the insurance company says i'll still probably come in on friday. she said ok and we agreed to set it up when we talked later.

And on top of all this, in the back of my mind, i have the end of tuesdays session in my head. When she walked me out i saw her next client. as i was leaving the waiting room, i heard T say, "Come in my dear, long time no see." and out of the corner of my eye i saw them hug. It ripped me apart, because she said i was one of the only clients she hugged. they obviously hadn't seen each other for a long time, but it still killed me. and she called her "my dear?" When she greets me she usually just says, "come on in." This should be the least of my worries considering i haven't heard from T, but i can't get it out of my head.

I'm really worried.

I know this feeling and it absolutely sucks. I'm sorry you're going through it.

Has she ever said she would call back, etc. before and missed a deadline? Some people are more detail oriented about these things than others...

I know that as a patient it can be hard to get through and get a straight answer from an insurance company. Maybe she's having trouble too, and is waiting until she gets a clear answer to call you back? It would be nice if she could have kept you in the loop either way though.

Hang in there. As hard as it is, I usually try to stay busy or get distracted at moments like these. Doesn't always work, but worth a try maybe...

i can't take it anymore. every minute i'm expecting a call from her and every minute that passes is a disappointment. WHAT THE &^*# IS GOING ON?!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm sorry this is happening. Do you think maybe she got the flu? Chances are is something like this not serious, but still I understand why you're hurting. Please try to distract yourself and let us know as soon as you hear something. Does she have a receptionist or somewhere you can call other than her cell phone?

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I was wondering the same thing as coconut - is there someone else at the office you can call?

I am seriously going to ask my T tomorrow how I would find out if something were to happen to him. Teacher T suggested I ask him since it is a worry of mine, and I think it would be reassuring to know "you'd be informed within 24 hours by so and so (probably teacher T)". I think it would help me stay away from these scary spirals when we think they've disappeared for real.

Maybe you can ask T about that when you reconnect with her, krazibean??

i guess i could try calling the office and ask the receptionist. but they won't be in til tomorrow and i SHOULD be THERE tomorrow....if only T would call back. But if it really goes that long i'll have to call them. i'm very afriad of what i'm going to hear though. very afraid. i could cry right now

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Just let the tears out as much you need and then do something to take care of yourself. Something that feels good. Hopefully she will call tonight, if not you can call tomorrow and talk to the office staff. Hang in there.

Hi, did she get in touch?
That's pretty weird that she didn't call, but there might have been some reason why she couldn't.

I'd be really worried if that was my doctor though.

I hope she did call and that everything is ok

Take Care

yea, we got in touch. i called her at the office last night and she was actually there. we talked for 45 mins. however, now i have a whole new set of problems. she claims she was just "busy" and didn't have the time to call me. She didn't really seem sorry either. The whole insurance stuff is still up in the air, and she almost tried to tell me she couldn't see me until it was cleared up. I see her today, though. Last night i had all these things planned to say and i planned to make sure she didn't interrupt or even talk at all. i just wanted to get everything off my chest. however this morning i am in a different place and i'm not as emotional so i don't know if that tactic will work. i just want things back to normal again...

I'm sorry you had such a hard time

Hearing T greet someone else like that would really really upset me! She greets me warmly enough but if I heard/saw her greeting someone else more intimately like that, it would be very hard!

How did it go today? Were you able to say all the things you wanted to say?

(((((((((((((KB))))))))))) I'm glad to hear your T is OK, however I think she should have called you back when she found out how upset you were. I'm also glad to hear you are doing better. Let us know how it goes today.

i'm relieved your T is ok. i'm so sorry you went through what you did, though. it hurts when Ts are "too busy" for us.

how did your appt with her go?