[del12]

I just thought I needed to write down some thoughts after my session. I think this is one of the first session where I really had a hard time getting myself together before I got home. I guess what we discussed really hit deep and really didn't get going until the end of the session. I didn't get a chance to get myself in a better place before I left. I hadn't thought about what we discussed for a very long time and I don't know how we even got on the subject. That was weird. I am just feeling sad and thought if I put it down maybe I can get clear where these feelings are coming from and enjoy the rest of my day. Thanks for being here. It is a comfort to know that in between sessions there are those who get the ups and downs of therapy.
Sometimes I wonder if T's get that sometimes it is really hard to shake off what we talk about.

[velcro003]

I feel ya del! I go to work after therapy, and today I had to play happy music LOUD on the way home to get my mind off what we were talking about and go about my day as normal. As much as today's session was difficult, I felt a real connection briefly for the first time.

She brought up the loss of my kitten unexpectedly today (we were talking about something different), and it blindsided me. I just sat there in such sadness for a minute, trying not to cry, and in that minute it was like all the air left the room, and even though I was looking at the floor, I felt like she was so there with me. I haven't felt like this before in therapy, and it could all be fabricated in my head, but I've felt good about it all day--I'll take it!

[mightaswelllive]

I totally understand this!

Today when I left session I was a whole mix of thoughts and emotions and I cried on and off for almost two hours about the littlest things. At one point I started crying so hard triggered by a song on the radio that I momentarily laughed hysterically, it made me cry even more (sure is funny now). Sometimes it's hard to shake that stuff and get back to reality!

(((((((((((((((((((del12))))))))))))))))))))

I often come here and post after therapy just to sort out my thoughts and clear my head. It's like my post-therapy therapy!!

I do think that T's understand how hard it is to pull ourselves together and move on with our day. T and I used to stop 5 minutes early so I could think about how I was going to feel/what I would think about/what I would worry about after I left, and he could help me with it a little bit.

When I am in the the therapy room, the blinds are closed (his window faces the parking lot) and I often forget the "real world" even exists. It can be such a shock to re-enter the real world without getting grounded again first.

I hope you are feeling better

[peaches100]

Del12,

Yes, I also understand how hard it is to leave therapy and face the "real world" again. It's really hard for me to go back to work when I've had a tough, emotional session. I've never been able to easily snap out of things when I am feeling emotional. Sometimes those feelings carry over into the rest of my day, and it's hard to cope. Once therapy has brought up alot of significant issues and feelings, it's extremely hard to contain it.