[stephiifaye92]

So there is this man. And I love him...so ever ****ing dearly. Most people couldnt even begin to understand. No matter how much I say I like someone, how much they make me happy, how much I do love them...they could never ever come close to him. Even if I am in all honesty that I do love someone, its not even close to the love I have for this man..

Its one of those teenage love stories. Like the movies. Too good, yet too bad to be true...but it is. I have known him since I was 13...thats when we were together. Let me tell you, we fell so hard for eachother...But then my mother went psycho on me one day, and made it so I couldnt be with him anymore. He was 17 at the time btw. So even after all this ****, years ago, he said to me "When you turn 18, we're gonna be together and we're gonna get married. Aint that right?" haha..and guess what...theres 10 months until Im 18. And we've talked preiodically...we get into deep conversation a lot. Like tonight. It was the first time Ive talked to him in a couple months. And we really got into our conversation. He still misses me...he still loves me...Like, if any of you knew how utterly fantastic that makes me feel....omg..I dont even know haha. But it makes me want to jump up and down, do cartwheels...something haha.
And you know, I havent seen him since I was 13...only talked to him over myspace. Sometimes the phone, but rarely. I havent seen him for four years...yet we still love eachother more than anything, and we both admit that every single day, we think of eachother. This is such a great feeling. I just wish I could express it with better words. I want to go outside and scream. I just want to cry...and I am haha.
Theres a chance that I might be able to see him this Xmas vacation...and OH MY ****ING GOD. If you knew...if you knew how friggn happy that would make me. I'm legitimately going to be BAWLING. Like hyperventilating BAWLING. haha.

The main thing that has caused my depression is not being able to see him...not being able to be with him. More so than my mother, or my father. I dont care about those situations compared to this. Omg... I just wish I could finish my thoughts, but they are racing and I couldnt separate them all if I tried. But its days like these that make me stop and think...

Soon, everythings going to be okay.
And these are the days that keep me alive.
♥

[Raredreams]

From the moment I read your message, I knew you were young. Sweety, why are you waiting for someone for 4 years? You situation is not a real healthy one.

The only think I can tell you is you need to move on. You are holding a dream in your head and the boy you met 4 years ago may not be the same now. If someone likes you or better yet...tells you they want to marry you...why wont they call you???????? or come and visit you often, propose....etc......

Keep asking yourself these questions and you alone will come up with the right answer for you. Its hard to let go of someone you love.....I know

Good luck,
Rare

[stephiifaye92]

Originally Posted by Raredreams

From the moment I read your message, I knew you were young. Sweety, why are you waiting for someone for 4 years? You situation is not a real healthy one.

The only think I can tell you is you need to move on. You are holding a dream in your head and the boy you met 4 years ago may not be the same now. If someone likes you or better yet...tells you they want to marry you...why wont they call you???????? or come and visit you often, propose....etc......

Keep asking yourself these questions and you alone will come up with the right answer for you. Its hard to let go of someone you love.....I know

Good luck,
Rare

Yeah I'm sorry. I know it sounds like a stupid teenage thing. And I know it sounds like I'm in denial. But theres a lot of detail I didnt put in here. And you know what, I dont really care, I believe its worth it. And he doesnt, because he doesnt have a phone. He's 21. Sooo we kind of cant. And he lives 2 1/2 hours away, and with his situation its too much to ask of him, which I realize and understand. But its fine with me, because it doesnt matter to me when people have these instant reactions to this. I know whats going on. You would just have to be in that situation to get it...Idk because I'm not going to stop trying at something I really believe will happen. No, Im not saying Im hanging on the fact of getting married to him, that was something he said years ago. I know. But yes, I do know that he does love me in that kind of way. Anyways, basically, I'm not giving up, because this isnt some stupid little long lost summer love. Its real. And I know it.

[tonih]

Stephiifaye, I believe that you are deeply invested in this relationship. All I want to add is to tread carefully. The old cliches are silly sounding, but there is wisdom to them and the one that comes to mind is" don't put all your eggs in one basket". I hope that everything turns out the way you imagine it will. But, time and life change things, so just go slow without too much expectations. No one person can make us happy. Hopefully , becoming a pair will be the source of your happiness. Good luck and bless!

[Typo]

good advice Tonih!

[stephiifaye92]

Originally Posted by tonih

Stephiifaye, I believe that you are deeply invested in this relationship. All I want to add is to tread carefully. The old cliches are silly sounding, but there is wisdom to them and the one that comes to mind is" don't put all your eggs in one basket". I hope that everything turns out the way you imagine it will. But, time and life change things, so just go slow without too much expectations. No one person can make us happy. Hopefully , becoming a pair will be the source of your happiness. Good luck and bless!

I know. Believe me at most times I'm not the most hopeful person, and I know...I'm not dumb [not saying you said it either] but I know reality and I'm just saying, theres pretty good chances. And ****, all I wanted to do was post this explaining how happy I was for a good day for once...I didnt need everyone jumping on me saying that kinda thing doesnt happen and Im too young to know kind of thing. [Again, not saying you specifically did]