Omg... I can't believe i did this!!

Thanks Elana. I am taking blooms advice and not hiding from my feelings but validating them so that maybe they won't be so overwhelming. They are so foreign to me after so many years of shutting down but I am assuring myself I can handle them. It is having a relaxing effect. I will rest there for awhile.

I actually had a moment in the garden just now remembering how sweet the romance was. It made me feel blessed for the experience. A smile filled my face and a satisfied sigh was released. I gave thanks. I know I am going to be okay now. No more fear or worried imaginings.

Thanks my friends for letting me process this today. I will keep you posted should a new chapter get written. Take good care.

bloom told you the truth.....as I said before I think you did good to email him....why not? why not to get in touch? you never know.....
plus, if all these waiting is bothering you, why don't you email him again asking him if he can email you back....just say you were always wondering what has happened to him....and you can tell him all the stuff that you told us....all things that he didn't know....again....it's good to get some conclusion.....and not just seat down and think what if I have said so or so.....

take care of yourself and be more gentle to your emotions.....and know that "your emotions are yours not you"

Love you Sanity xxxx

Thanks everyone. You guys are awesome.

Bloom has put me onto a much more satisfying approach to my thought processes. Interesting because I think I knew it in theory and thought I was doing it but not until it really clicked did I get it. I am being less afraid to feel what I am feeling.

I did send a friend invite on facebook but I don't think he frequents there much so that could take a while for him to even notice it.

I can't say much in an email to him because it is business email. I don't want something so personal mixed in with special orders for his products. Never know who is processing those orders and reading those emails. If I had a private address I might be inclined to do what you suggest Marjn but not when it is likely too public for something so private.

If he doesn't reply then I will just have to publish the letters and dedicate the book to him. lol.

He accepted my friend request on FB 4 hours ago. He said he will write an email later because he was busy right then. I can't wait.

nice to knw that he accepted the friends request but dear plz dnt dwell on these thoughts a lot. I hope u dont get hurt again.

((Sanity))
Just enjoy the feelings you have at the moment! If nothing else you are in for a fun time and you will have re-kindled a friendship that may last for ever xxxxx

That's awesome.....

Sanity, you got to be more patient from now on

I am eagerly anticipating what his email said, hope everything is ok and you are alright.

Thanks everyone. Still no word. The thing with impulsive actions. You expect quick responses. When you don't get it, the impulse gets old. His enthusiasm is contagious. lol.

I am off for a few days doing summer family time. Will keep you posted if any life comes to this story.

Yay! good luck! <3333333

so...what is his relationship status? single, married, in a relationship?

HI Bloom,
It doesn't say anything. No relationship status.
Still waiting on the email he promised in a wall message. He is opening a second business. Busy guy. Meanwhile I wrote an ice breaker email but still no reply yet.

This real life timetable isn't very complimentary to my bi polar impulsivity. I want the instant gratification. The adrenaline rushing anticipation. The momentary spontaneity. All happening in hyper speed. lol.

That is what I was looking for when I acted impulsively but unfortunately it didn't play out that way. Real time came along and slowed the fun down.

I hate waiting on real time!!

Just out of experience of my own....I usually postpone replying to emails that are very important to me and I want to reply them perfectly.....
I think he's busy with the business stuff or whatever but he wants to write you more in dept that's why it's taking him longer.....
I don't like waiting either....arggg....that's making me so depressed and I hate it.....