I screwed it again!

I think if you just remember and treat it like you have just labeled it
"a crush".. you will find a better person to focus your energy on xxxx

It hurts big time when we like someone and it isn't reciprocated. In your case, it sounds like he didn't even treat you with basic respect! I'm glad you are aware that he's not good for you - you obviously have deep feelings and deserve someone who'll treat you kindly and not stomp on them. I wish you all the best.

How are you doing dear jaikhan? Hoping that you are happy and bright sending you hugs

@onward2wards.. Yes,he has been very rude wid me. treating me gud is out of question.
@rhainnon.. Im better i was very afraid of facíng him but it isnt too bad as compared to what i was thinking. His presence is sort of'bearable' for me and im not gonna hide my face when he is around. It still hurts on inside but i think it7 not because he doesnt feel the same way for me as i did (may b i still do).

It hurts mainly becuz my ego has been kicked by him.

((((((((jaikhan))))))))

I think you are doing really well sweetie and I think holding your dignity the way you have is really commendable. I know you still feel something for him, it is impossible to just switch off your feelings for someone, even when they have treated you badly.

I think you are wonderful and I am very proud to know you because I know just how hard this has been for you. And I don't know if many people realise that difficulty for you. I think you are just brilliant to handle it the way you have,

Lots of loving hugs,

Rhiannon

Jiakhan, you should be so proud of yourself. Your ego might be bruised by him but it should be brought up by the fact you are doing so well and are being civil and strong. I think everyone here is so proud of you. We are glad you are doing well. I shouldn't talk for others so I'm going to say it for myself. I am proud of you for being a strong woman. This gets you one step closer to finding the one for you. And your are taking charge of your own destiny that is such a wonderful feeling. Glad to see you are doing. If you ever feel like you are slippig we are always here for you.

I want ur opinion on something. I used to act kind of "euphoric" whenever around this guy. Always talking and laughing. After his harsh let down,i remained quiet for few days around him.

I tried to act 'sober' instead of a chirping bird. But now i feel that im again starting to behave like my old self. Talking,laughing and carefree!
Is that wrong?

Not at all hon. That is the best way to be, just yourself. The sooner you get back to being yourself the better you will feel