Mental Breakdown...NOW

OMG,
my mom calls me up asking if i called her, so i said no i didnt. So yeah, then i say her friend called asking for our cleaning ladys number but she wasnt home...and i dont think she was on her cell phone..caller ID said so. so i kinda yelled at her trying to explain because she was talking over me loudly...so shes like, You know what?! your officially grounded when i get home!!! I'm like, wtf????????? i started screaming on top of my lungs when i got off, tried calling her to apologize, but no, shes gotta be a d***. i feel like crying. i feel like im going nuts now. grrrrr...life sucks for me...all the time... i want to cut now out of spite and depression.....i feel like running away too...or beating myself up...i think ill just stick with none of the above though, HOPEFULLY.....any ideas of what i can do?? idk...having a hard time..sry if i wasted your time

deb

It sounds like you are very hurt that your Mom would ground you just for speaking loudly over the phone. Maybe let things cool off for a while and then when you are both calm, tell her how you feel when you were talking to her over the phone? If you Mom understood where you where coming from, maybe she would reconsider the grounding?

Do your parents know how much you hurt? Do they know that you cut?

Deb, you need to take some deep breaths and focus on relaxing and forgetting as much as possible what just went on. YOU DON'T NEED TO LET IT GET YOU!

Are you seeing a T? Are you on any meds? Maybe you should not talk to your mother if this is the reaction you will have.

Get help from someone you trust ASAP. Hang in there!