More Issues than TIME magazine!

Ha! Ha! Ha! That's me. I deal with so much these days. Granted, not as much as I used to, but enough to drive me crazy! Anyways, I live a very lonely life. Sure, I have a boyfriend who loves me, a family who loves me, and a few friends, but nothing really satisfies me. I don't like having sex with my boyfriend anymore, my family could be more accepting of me, and my friends could be more open-minded...wait a minute, they all could be. I just need MORE!

I don't want my boyfriend anymore...I want a woman who can "wow" me. I want my dad to be ok with my sexuality, and I want to be closer to my family and friends. All of this seems impossible at this point. Other things are bothering me, too.

I guess I'm feeling a bit left out these days. I see everyone here getting a lot of kudos in the forum...it seems a lot of them anyways...I don't get any. I've gotten 2 I think the whole time I've been here. That saddens me because I think I'm not important here or people don't think of me as much as others. I guess you could say I'm the type of person who likes lots of attention, support, and recognition. Now, don't go giving me kudos on the forums just because I say I want more. I don't want that, either. That would be bad, in my opinion. I just feel really left out about that. That's all. I go out of my way to help people here. At least I think I do.

I don't post about everything here, either. Like I don't post about my sexuality as much as I would like to, or the problems that I encounter in everyday life. I like helping people here. I'm here a lot because I like helping out people so much. Sure I'd probably be a good therapist and everything, but that's not for me.

Ok, I guess this has just been a post for me to ramble and complain a lot about things I don't like. Well, I guess I'm done. Sorry if I upset anyone.

sweetie I did not relize I was not giving you the more you wanted in our freindship.. This I am truly sorry for, ok.

I accept you for who you are not what You can give me nor what I can give.. I only want freindship, and being so far apart has it's disavandagtes I suppose I do love you with all my heart and would do anything to help support you if only I had more time to be online when you are.. But my family has to come frist and formost in my life..

I hope you understand this..

I know where you are comign form when you say you live a lonely life..
I am going through a great deal myslef too.. ok.
Love to you..

keep in touch whenyou can ok

Girl, you are giving me so much and I am very greatful for it! I know you have so much on your plate and that is why I don't ask for much from you! If we weren't so far apart I guess things would be much different, but you never know.

I know family must come first and never asked to be put first from you. You are my friend, that's all I ever wanted. You give me love, understanding, and a friendship that I would never trade for anything.

Never feel guilty that you can't be there for me all the time, nobody can really do that. I can't even be there for myself all the time...only when I'm able to cope can I be there for myself and others. Nobody is that dependable. Sure, I'm lonely, but who wouldn't be in my situation.

I love you dearly. Don't be so harsh on yourself for something you cannot control.

oh Lexi.. YOu are so sweet you have no idea how this made my day when I got up this moring and read it..

YOu almos made me cry, which for some reason does nto take much anymore