Just ranting!

im sorry im here again for ranting. i have broken up real bad with a friend just now....and i feel terrible! i hate my mood swings!! its all my fault! i hate it. i hate this world. i hate evrything. i hate myself. i m so ****ed up that i dont even know what i want and dont want.

i push away people....and i dont really have many friends. those who feel for me,i push them away. how the hell im gonna live like this i dont know that.

im so ****ed up. im a total failure.

Aww jlakhan im so sorry you feel that way your not a failure .. Your struggling with something that is not easy ,, do you have anyone to talk to?

@jia i understand u are finding it difficult to understand your situationa and in confusion about what to decide about the world and people in it. i guess u are young but trust me people much beyond their primes feel the same way. the only advise i would like to offer you is to stop understanding others! i know it might sound harsh but u really cannot hope to understand others unless u find yourself. try to seek what u are as in your personality( read abt it from web) your dreams, your capabilities your key skills in this world, your nature( as in ambitious, caring ,materialistic, philanthropic etc) then u be confident abt it. and show to the world u'r good side. soon you wil build a world of your own with the people who are happy for you and are happy u are there with them and also you wil be happy that hey are there in your world. all this will take time but it will be worth it as you will find more peace in your life and love. it all starts with understanding yourself.TC

I get that feeling at least once a day. It's tiring, annoying, defeating, painful...I just cry. That's the only way to get my frustration out without causing harm to myself or others. I self-medicate also, but I'm not going there.

Annnnywho....You want to run, but there's nowhere to go and no way to get there (In MY case anyway). I totally feel your pain babe, that's all I can say.

Thanks everybody who replied and those who read. M still showing this behaviour. He's a gud guy and he deserves better. Should i just let him go? Oh and by the way we were just friends.

****ed up!!!!!!!!! :'(