How weird is this relationship?

I agree I should treat and view her like a sister, and that's what I've been doing. We hit a rough spot in our relationship (albeit a very, very small one) about two months ago, but for the past few weeks it's seems like we've never been closer. I've thought a bit about our relationship recently, and I'm starting to (very sadly) realize that I'm in kind of in love with her. I don't want to be; I would much prefer to be close platonically in a brother-sister-cousinish sort of way (because I have value it so much)... but I've realized that I am.

I plan to never act on that or tell her this (and most certainly not in the near future), but it's just a sad fact that I'm throwing out there. And I'd guess pretty confidently that she's in a similar boat.

((((Username))))))....it'll get easier,at least you have your honor,and her well-being at heart.I'm sorry you are walking through this valley.