I am thinking about emailing my ex friend but I am scared of the reaction I will probably get, I had known her for over 3 years, She has mental health issues as well, In the end we hurt eachother pretty bad. I got fed up with her because it was me that made all the effort and I got to the point when I thought why am I even doing this anymore? Not just that but now and then she would bully me.

Besides all of this we did get on sometimes, I miss her when I am feeling lonely, Tonight I have done some thinking and if I email her and I think she would probably get nasty what will I do then? Am I being stupid? Should I just let this go?

I am terrible with friends, Maybe it is me and not her. I don't know, I am confused, I have never been good with friends.

[Justme_55]

Wow I swear I could have written this; I had a very similar thing happen, only she was downright sinister in her vengeful words and I retaliated with intent to hurt her because it literally came out of the blue and I felt a thousand knives in my back from the emensely brutal betrayal of someone I thought was a real friend. I'd say if I were in you're shoes to take the chance & email her. Keep it on you, nothing gets accomplished by pointing out her wrongs, it's her job to take accountability for her words/ reaction. Clear you're
side of the road admit you're wrongs, make an amends and It's her decision how she
reacts you cannot control that, but that's a chance you're taking. She doesn't have to
forgive you, or accept you're side but you should let her know that you still care about her as a person. I know I wish I had reacted differently to her attack, that hurt cannot be undone no matter what but I feel decent about the fact I owned my accountability to our burnt bridge. After a many situations since involving her meddling in my marriage the truth came through a valuable source that she was insanely jealous of me, I hate that she thought that was a reason to destroy my character but that's her issue to deal with. I miss her all the time, but I know I'm better off with my few close friends that I know don't allow bitterness or envy to destroy a valuable friendship. I hope it all works out & that I could have been of some help. Good luck & keep us all posted please!

[missbelle]

Sounds like the relationship was not all bad. There were some good things and it sounds like you are very aware of the bad things. If you miss her it would not hurt to email her. She might be missing the friendship as well. Since you know her you can now develop some boundries with her so she cannot hurt you in the future.

She may not be interested in starting a friendship up again. That is the chance you take in emailing her, but the only way you will know is to put yourself out there.
Just know what you are looking for and be realistic in any expectations that you have.You might now want to think of some boundries you will need if she chooses to start the friendship up again.

Thinking of you