[kaitie13]

Well lately I've been growing more depressed than I've ever felt, and anxiety is bringing out the worst in me. I live with my aunt, and though we've never really gotten along often, things have been worse for a number of reasons. I don't agree with most of what she says and does, and I'm only 15 so I don't have much of a voice.
When she vents to me about ME, it's crossing a line that I'm not comfortable with. Due to her opinions an loud mouth, I've been holding things in more and I've been bottling things up more often than not. I know that this is unhealthy, but I lost all of my best friends after a break up, and now the only person I really have left is my boyfriend of 6 months, and my therapist.
Even though I trust my boyfriend, he has problems of his own, and I'm sure we've all heard that you must help yourself to help someone else? Well putting my weight on his shoulders would make it harder on him to feel better as well.
From here, I don't really know what to do. Especially since my mentality isn't always a sunny day and my mind isn't stable either.

Sincerely,
KAITIE

[shezbut]

I'm sorry that you're having such a tough time, Kaitie.

Have you talked with your T about these things? It's his/her job to help you find a healthy way to work through the emotions that you're struggling with. Calling the following number is always an option as well. They can help you find available resources in your area, listen, and offer their emotional support.
1-800-273-TALK (8255)

Thank you for coming here to share how you're feeling inside. Of course, almost all of us can relate on at least one level. I encourage you to come back and talk whenever you need a helping hand, a hug, or someone to listen. There are lots of terrific and supportive members here. Hope that you get some relief very soon.

Gentle hugs to you ~ best wishes sent your way!

[Leed]

Bless your heart. I must say that you're very mature for your young age. And you're very well spoken too!

It's very kind and mature of you to realize that your boyfriend is also having problems, so you don't "dump" on him right now. Most young girls/women would just plain let it all hang out and throw it right in his lap regardless -- without even thinking! I applaud you for being so considerate.

Are your parents available? Do you have insurance ? if you aren't alreadly seeing a counselor, you NEED to. Your depression is becoming too deep, and you need to get a handle on it before it gets out of hand. It CAN be controlled and even obliterated if taken care of early enough. So talk with your aunt. Tell her how you've been feeling. By telling her, it might even improve your relationship -- it might help her understand you a bit better. Then the two of you can figure out the best way to get you some counseling. But PLEASE talk to her about it, ok? You really need to see someone.

I wish you the very best. I KNOW that you'll be okay because you're reaching out for help, and that's a good sign. Let us know what happens, will you? I'll keep looking for a response down the road. God bless you and please take care. Hugs, Lee

You don't have to agree with everything your aunt says. Because you are a minor and in her home, you do have to be respectful and abide by the rules even when they suck and aren't fair and you disagree with them. I've also been in this situation--my foster mother and I went around and around about what was fair and what wasn't. I got in the least amount of trouble in the house (never partied, took AP classes, extracurriculars...) but was grounded the most because of my wicked mouth. I know it seems like, when bad things happen, they're never going to get better, but they do. I hated it when people said that to me--things seemed so intense to me in my teens and twenties--but in high school, you'll always find different friends and new situations. That's almost a guarantee.

Hugs to you.