Want to detach from others

Ohh,I write and erase and over again.I feel as if I cannot be frank with anyone anywhere and it is so very destructive to bottle all of the emotions that I carry.My heart feels shattered,and there are so many obstacles between me the life I long for.I am deeply enamored with an individual,and that has led to what I classify as love.A different sort than anything I have felt before now.My heart feels a multitude of things for this person.Concern for their emotional,spiritual,and physical well being.Respect for the values this person chooses to hold.Admiration for the contents of their personality,and character.A feeling that my welfare is an important matter to them.Deep sexual attraction,so deep that it resides in a spiritual sphere.As in ...a soul connection.Yet we both have obstacles which have prevented us from being able to build on these things.There's been a period of being able to spend a great deal of time together,and now a period which felt forced by circumstance,where a separation was outside the realm of choice.I am having a very hard time soothing my pain,and focusing on my well being and building features into my life which will bring the ability for me to heal my baggage and build my life skills.I really feel I must censor myself.I just feel overwhelmed by the separation and the current situation I am in.Thanks for reading.

You are so right bottling your emotions can be so destructive, I hope you are able to get those feelings out.

Something that has worked for me in the past is to write what I am feeling down, even if I don't let anyone read my words it helps me to work through them. It sounds like you really care for this person, sorry you have to be separated from them.

Thank you for taking the time to respond to me.I felt shame in posting this,and find it difficult to expose my heart publicly in these forums.I have a couple of people that I can speak frankly to,but prefer to speak more privately,so it is really hard for me here.Again,thank you.