continuation of my paranois statement!

I really don't know where to go from here. Who to turn to. Why do i keep expecting my boyfriend to let me down. I realy don't want to lose him. I am so depressed i really think i need help. What is expected of me? What do i do to get rid of my paranoia? Emmaxxx

Emma....
You know, I don't think you should beat yourself up about being paranoid. You trusted him, he betrayed your trust, and now you don't trust him anymore. It doesn't mean there is anything wrong with YOU. Now, if you are thinking that the entire world is out to get you, that seems more like paranoia to me. But your situation seems like you just can't trust your boyfriend.

If you think you need help, then you probably do. And getting help is the best thing you can do right now, so that's great that you are following your instincts.

One thing that crosses my mind as I read your posts is that you seem very VERY attached to him. I'm not saying that attachment is bad -- to the contrary, feeling attached to someone feels great. But when your happiness is dependent upon being attached to someone else, then you are bound to be disappointed time and time again. What works for me is to make myself strong -- by taking classes, learning how to be good at doing things, and finding ways to be self-sufficient and independent.

Do you have a school counselor available? I think that would be a good place to start, although the quality of help might be limited. But they should at least be able to direct you to someone whose job it can be to give you the help and support that you are asking for.

Emma - take care of yourself, ok?

LMo

We are ALL going to be a-ok!