[Lei]

Ive been in a wonderful relationship with a guy for about half a year and hes amazing...but my mind rattles with confusion when i fall into this pit of mania, or depression. I fell angry and irritated at myself, and i know that he would understand...but he thinks i'm so wonderful and i feel dead on the inside, i think that he deserves more than me, i feel like i will bring him down. I'm new to this, first relationship, first time for feeling this ******, first time for my life to be falling through into nothing. I feel like i shoud fall asleep and wake up ad hell have forgotten about me, i think what i want to know is how do i keep this relationship without feeling guilty for my moods.

[darkeyes]

Do you take medication for your problem? Do you see a therapist or psychiatrist? It may be that a change in your medication could be needed or maybe you may need a medication to stabilize your moods, it is just a thought. Explain to your boyfriend exactly what you feel, this may help him to help you which in turn will help your relationship. Welcome to the forum, you'll find a lot great people here that are very helpful and are just downright nice to chat with. Keep in touch
"darkeyes"

[brockchris]

Quite frankly you should talk to him.
men, well we do care and think.if you let him know your opening up a channel of communication rather than not daring to.
chris

[curlyq]

Having mood swings or mood disorders are nothing to be ashamed of if that's the case. If you are having bigtime problems with your moods like I think you are saying you might want to see a psychiatrist or a therapist of some kind so that you can get some relief and not feel so distressed. Also, you might want to talk to your boyfriend about how you feel, too. I know and many others here, too, know how hard it is to go through mood swings and you are understood and not alone.

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