[drowning]

Ok i'm not pregnant anymore i had an abortion at six weeks and three days i know it was the right thing to do because at this point in my life i don't think i would make a very good parent but i cant help but think about it and what it would be like would it have been a boy or a girl? things like that. the guy that i was with has now left and gone back to cape breaton i just cant stop thinking about him and while i'm feeling all this i hide it from my boyfriend he has no idea how i feel this is all just very very hard.

[PsychStudent74]

O drowning I wish I could have spoken w/ you b4 to let you know what you was going to go threw emotionally and then you could have decided. I had one 16 yrs ago and I still think about it all the time. I think about if it would have been a boy or girl and still remember my due date, Dec 17. Every yr on that day I go threw a deep depression and haven't worked on this w/ my T yet. I was only 16 and my mom had told me she would kick me out if I didn't. (part of her controling she had over me) I realize I was very young and not able to take care of a baby but if I could go back and change what I did I would. I hope you don't go threw what I did because everyone is diff. I am here anytime you want to talk about.

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[Maven]

I'm sorry you're going through that. I know abortion is a tough decision, as is keeping the baby or giving it up for adoption. I really wish you the best.

[hillbunnyb]

Everybody I know remembers the dates: due, miscarried/ aborted.. It's normal to be thinking all the thoughts you're thinking. Have you considered making a private remembrance to that spark of pure potential? Plant a tree, paint a painting, write a poem..... type trip.....?

Plus, your hormones are wonkers and you're all emotional from that too...... take it slow and easy and heal up. Focus on taking care of you and what that means long term. Hard choices bring good times to reevalulate what we're doing and where we are with our lives. Ponder. Journal. Therapy. Good Luck.

[(JD)]

Please do seek out professional help to work through your feelings. I'm sorry you felt that was your only way to deal with the situation, but now that you have, you will still need help imo.

You can still contact an organization that counsels against abortions. They are kind understanding ppl and know all too well the angst about the after-effects...as many of them have been where you are. ((((gentle hugs))))

[Maven]

You can also go to StacyZallie.org, which is a foundation for girls and women suffering post-abortion grief, and it's neither pro-choice nor pro-life.