bill just called and the Freeport, Texas job went inhouse. never a word about that possibility was said during the two interviews that he had. he felt both went really well. so, we're not going to be 90 miles apart......it may be three continents again.

bill's main worry is my health and not being here for me. he wants to know that he can get to me, asap, if i get really ill again. i, of course, wanted his "bode" to be near me.

he has always done extraordinary work in Muslim countries as he has spent years studying their culture and is really trusted by the company and the Muslims that work under him. i really, really, really don't want him to go back to that area. he isn't worried about the workers, he's worried about the people who are not mainstream Muslims.

i have a huge hole in my stomach right now. but, i'm more worried about him. he's been sending pics of rings and making plans for a "merged" long distance household. it has taken a long, long time to get me to consider even the ring "thing".....my trust issues loom bigger than most Oklahoma mountains.

he is really, really down. so am i. we've both been single for such a long, long time and getting to be this close, distance wise, has been holding us up.......health and job wise.

i guess we need a group hug.........xoxoxo pat

[(JD)]

awww my heart tugs for ya.

[radio_flyer]

(((((((((((( bill and fayerody )))))))))))))))) I am soo sorry....... I don't know what kind of work Bill does, but could he find maybe a job in Texas and stay with you??? Just thinking out loud..... What country is he going to and what does he actually do as to helping/working with muslims?????

Bill is a chemist and has been with this company for his entire career. He doesn't particularly "like" the company, but he's close to retirement. They haven't always been the best stewards of our earth and that bothers him a great deal. However, he has to consider what works best for the future. Staying with them would be best.

thanks.......i felt the hugs......xoxoxo pat

[LMo]

aw man, what a let-down, Ethel... I'm sorry to hear this - I know how much you were looking forward to it

[jmo531]

Sorry to hear that Pat.

(((((((((((((((Pat and Bill)))))))))))))

[allthegirls6]

im sorry this didnt work out.

(((((((((((((((((((((bill and fayerody ))))))))))))))))))))

[katheryn]

(((((((((((( bill and fayerody ))))))))))))))))

[bebop]

((((fayerody and bill)))))) I hope things will change for you both soon hon!

((((((((((((( Pat & Bill ))))))))))))))))

[mrb020377]

((((((((((((((((((pat and bill))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

thinking about you

[walkswithspiritbear]

(((((((((fayerody))))))))) ((((((((((Bill))))))))))))))))))
I hope that things work out better than you think right now...

thanks so much, guys......i'm off to austin now with a load of antiques that i am going to consign to a great shop there........stella is going with me!!!!!!!!! she's never been away from home!!!!!!!!eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. wish us luck and love......love you, pat

[wisewoman]

Hi Pat, is there a way that Bill can continue to work for the company but be a consultant and work from the US so you can be together? Life is preciously short. Live now while we have the chance.

Hi Pat,
I'm sorry to hear about this. I guess he can't get a job that's closer to home? This is sad. You're in love and should be together.
(((((((((Pat)))))))

oh pat......i felt just sick when i read your post..i'm so sorry.....

[nothemama8]

remember ole lady, when one window closes another one opens, faith baby faith

[razeljenny]

Sounds like you both really love one another and that love is so powerful that it travels to where you both are. I realize how you feel and see that being a part of this forum is so wonderful. I am so proud of you for being a strong person as you have been doing and your sharing here has helped me when I read about you before. I think that your mans braveness and outgoingness are admirable and also it sounds like he is a great man of strength to himself to you and to others and they need him so much to be helping over there because he is so good. He is a powerful man and you have the blessings of him so very much in your life. I can tell that his healing strength has even physically made you get more well at certain times because of his strong power and influence. It is great to have a man that inspires our whole person and God as well does that too when we yeild to God but this man is such a good man and you will continue to be healed when you see him and God in this awesome limitless potential- you will. Your friend Robin at the Central

[(JD)]

((((hugs))))) TC and drive safely!

thanks so much, to everyone for the love and support.

bill got a job offer from NO, on Friday, but he would be displacing a NO resident. he said he could never do that. i agree with him. if it were a new position, that would be okay. his background is much stronger than the other employee, but what a slap in the face for someone who just lost everything they owned......no way....so, we've dealt with that.

my house in Texas is sooooo cute. the landlord put beadboard in the kitchen and it looks like a totally new room. i had been a bit dismayed by that room.....he added two new windows and a new gas stove. i was blown away when i walked in.

the trip was okay. stella did really well going down there. BUt, my daughter and her two children came back with us and i thought i was going to have a breakdown. first one would cry and then sleep. then another would cry and then sleep........... we were laughing about xanax all the way back......for the kids.

someone pointed out that bill has helped me healthwise. he certainly has and i don't think i've thought about that enough. i couldn't sleep one night recently and e.mailed him at 2 a.m.......i received an e.mail back immediately. he had suddenly awakened and checked the computer.

he's very intuitive about my moods and ills. we're just intuitive about each other.(you gotta love a man who would propose to someone who's username was "weezilgirl" on a literary message board and especially since he was in Malaysia and i was in Oklahoma)

i was worried about him, the job problem, and i wrote him a long letter one night. he said that i hit the nail on the head about every single thing that was worrying him.. and that made it all okay........we're pretty connected..........and i know that i could never find another man who loves music as much as i do. i've been wanting to play the mandolin and guess what i got via UPS on Thursday?

something will work out......xoxoxo pat

called me this morning........................pray hard, folks. love, pat

[mrb020377]

Consider it done pat...... Nothing but good wishes and prayers coming your way....... got all of my toes crossed too just in case

[bebop]

will be praying ethel!!

thanks, guys.....still praying. it takes time. he'll have to go for interview now.........xoxo pat