[winky139]

Hi everyone,
I'm hoping someone can help me and hopefully others will
Find this post helpful too. My moods will be fine and something
Out of the blue will make me snap into a fit of
Aggression, self hatred, insecurity and nastiness.
I will attack my boyfriend and family verbally saying
They don't love me and don't understand me, and I will
End up saying nasty things that I sincerely do not mean.
My relationships are being damaged due to these nasty things I say
And I struggle to control myself but once the "fit" is over
I feel terribly sad, sorry and self loathing after it happens and
Always promise to change although it seems to keep happening
No matter how hard I try. I don't want my family believing I think
These awful things about them please help !

[~Christina]

Im sorry you are feeling so bad.

Have you seen a psych Doctor ? or your regular Doctor at least ?

Please reach out for help.

Good luck

[Leed]

Hi dear Winky ~ Bless your heart. Something is definitely "out of whack." And I know it's nothing YOU are doing wrong.

Are you in therapy? If not, talk to your medical doctor and have him refer you to a good therapist. He will know who to send you to. But you do need therapy. But first see your doctor. Hopefully he'll look you over first, to make sure everything is ok -- perhaps run some blood work, etc.

You do need to see about this my friend. And I hope you will. God bless and please keep us posted, will you? Hope to hear from you! Hugs, Lee

[winky139]

Oh you are both so caring and sweet it means so much to me honestly !!
I was seeing a psychiatrist who put me on medication
Which has helped a lot as my "fits" are far less frequent
But they are just as severe when they occur and have been
Becoming more regular again I definitely am going to see
My doctor to see if I can get a recommendation to a therapist.
I'm so sick of the negative and damaging thoughts going through
My mind and effecting those I love !

Thank you again so much xx