[kitty]

I had my second appt w/the new therapist and I am not sure I really like him. He had some good pointers on the sleep issue and I will try what he says, but he was also supposed to be helping me with other issues and we really did not talk about anything other than what I am supposed to do re: the sleep issues, which took maybe 20 minutes (1/4 of which involved him printing the info he needed to give me). I told him I did not want to come back next week, that I wanted to try his techniques and then come back in 2 or 3 wks, but he said I have to come back because "if something went wrong" it would be too late to fix. What could go wrong? I am not on medication or anything. I have so many thoughts and I don't know what to do with them. I want my sleep disorder solved, but I also want to deal with my unhappiness and he does not seem to want to address that. Maybe I am hopeless.

[mylife]

Maybe he thinks your moods have to do with your problems with sleeping? Mine has mentioned that to me before. It's a thought. I know from my psych classes in the past also, that it is true that your moods are affected by your sleep.

[curlyq]

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[kitty]

Thanks for all your thoughts CQ - you are so sweet. I know I should be thankful for all that I do have, and I really am, but that does not always help (and of course makes me feel guilty).
The reality is that I really don't have a chance of getting pregnant and I really have to start facing that and deal with it. I just keep thinking this is so unfair, but I have to stop that and just deal with this. Thanks for being optimistic for me, though. I just wish my husband would agree to adopt. I really don't feel the need to be preg (although I would like to be). I would love to adopt from China.
Regarding the therapist, yes, there is something else. He sort of annoys me and I fear it will get worse. I really like his voice on the phone, but in person I felt he was not as receptive.
In terms of a husband being the right guy, that is so important. So many people settle and are in unhappy marriages, which to me is so much worse than being single. When you do find that guy, he will be very lucky!

[curlyq]

Hi. I hope I didn't say the wrong thing and sorry if I did. Not my intention. But I don't think you need feel guilty for what you have. You also have some serious problems that you are addressing and have trudged a very long rough road. I feel for you.

You seem to want to adopt but I know what you told me that your husband thinks on it. I wonder if there was some way to persuade him about it. There are many children in the world who need a mother and father. I'm sure you will make a wonderful mother regardles of how it happens.

As for the therapists, unless I really do not click with them right off I usually give them 3 trys. But it's up to you. take care. CQ

PS. I deleted my previous post because I'm not sure if I said something and then you felt guilty. So, it's not there anymore and I just wish the best to you, kitty, honestly.

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