[ThisWayOut]

Understandably, my family has put some measures in place that help them feel safer with me right now. Thing is, this one part is really not helpful. It's a condition of them not taking back to the hospital, but I can't sleep here, so I am left tired and just waiting for the sun to come up so I can get back to my own bed (I'm supposed to go sleep in my mom's room after my wife goes to work). I'm quite off when I can't sleep, and I've been here for the last hour unable to sleep because I'm so uncomfortable. If I were in my own bed, I would be passed out at this point. But instead I'm on the floor wide awake and my head has started going a million miles an hour. :/ no one I know is online and able to talk. And I don't know how to approach them and say this is not helpful, and that I'm willing to do it if I feel unsafe, but this just isn't working...
It makes everything more hopeless when I can't sleep. And I certainly can't sleep right now. It's another 30 minutes until sunrise, and that is not soon enough. I can't even call anyone, because it would be disturbing my mom. Ugh.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by MdngtRain

Understandably, my family has put some measures in place that help them feel safer with me right now. Thing is, this one part is really not helpful. It's a condition of them not taking back to the hospital, but I can't sleep here, so I am left tired and just waiting for the sun to come up so I can get back to my own bed (I'm supposed to go sleep in my mom's room after my wife goes to work). I'm quite off when I can't sleep, and I've been here for the last hour unable to sleep because I'm so uncomfortable. If I were in my own bed, I would be passed out at this point. But instead I'm on the floor wide awake and my head has started going a million miles an hour. :/ no one I know is online and able to talk. And I don't know how to approach them and say this is not helpful, and that I'm willing to do it if I feel unsafe, but this just isn't working...
It makes everything more hopeless when I can't sleep. And I certainly can't sleep right now. It's another 30 minutes until sunrise, and that is not soon enough. I can't even call anyone, because it would be disturbing my mom. Ugh.

So if you don't do what they want they will ship you off to the mental hospital?

Are you on meds? If you are do they help?

Why do they have to have safety when your around?

You can message me if you want.

[Leed]

WHY on earth can't you sleep in your OWN BED after your wife goes to work? What DIFFERENCE does it make? Is your mother in the same room? So you're sleeping on the floor, right -- so she can hear if you get up, etc? What if you have to use the bathroom -- aren't you supposed to do that?

This is insane. They are just plain intimidating you. If your medications are working, you should just plain go back to your OWN BED, and tell them to mind their own business! What to they think - that you're an axe murderer or something?

They're making things worse. Ask your doctor to call them and TELL them that you CAN sleep in your own bed -- and to LEAVE YOU ALONE. Good grief, they're part of the problem! God bless you and please take care of YOU. Hugs, Lee

[ThisWayOut]

we talked, and I am allowed a bit more lee-way. The concern is over my impulsiveness and ability to keep myself safe. If I had benefits, I would be in a hospital right now. Since I don't the only thing the county would do is contain and drug me in a really disgusting place. I can do that at home (I have anxiety meds that kick my ***, and I at least have my comfort items to help keep me safe).
They are worried, and I get that, but like you said, sometimes they just make it worse.

[shezbut]

I hope that you're getting some professional help to get you through this time of your life, MdngtRain! You certainly can't expect to go on like this until you suddenly begin to feel better.

We usually need to talk with a neutral party, that seems to care about us (as human beings) and can relate to us. Talking with that person a few times, to gain a better perspective towards our lives, sometimes takes a few weeks. I hope that you DO have a T, whom you see regularly. Perhaps you can get in to see them a little more often, to help you get through this rough patch?

Gentle hugs and best wishes to you!

[ThisWayOut]

Originally Posted by shezbut

I hope that you're getting some professional help to get you through this time of your life, MdngtRain! You certainly can't expect to go on like this until you suddenly begin to feel better.

We usually need to talk with a neutral party, that seems to care about us (as human beings) and can relate to us. Talking with that person a few times, to gain a better perspective towards our lives, sometimes takes a few weeks. I hope that you DO have a T, whom you see regularly. Perhaps you can get in to see them a little more often, to help you get through this rough patch?

Gentle hugs and best wishes to you!

I do have a t, and have been seeing him an average of twice a week. I also go to couples therapy, and a support group. Just trying to keep my head above water until I can get some benefits. It's tough.

[sandworm]

sorry you are having trouble Mdngtrain.


The reasonable man adapts himself to the conditions that surround him. The unreasonable man adapts surrounding conditions to himself. All progress depends on the unreasonable man. George Bernard Shaw.