[Emma 2]

Well as far as I remember I can't get peace with myself I'm always demanding always angry hurting myself and my family and now I started hurting people I don't even know . I'm already full of rage I know what cause it but I don't care i want that rage. it make me feel strong powerful I can kick anyone on my way . I like people at first then I don't like them any more and simply walk away but I have 2 friends I don't want more than them I'm very loyal friend and helpful one. I love to help people and give the poor one the happiness they want. I want to help everyone to save the world to bring peace but I don't know how could this two feelings be in one person I feel there is a fight inside of me but the good always win this fight always there since childhood .... Now the rage is getting bigger and bigger and I can't hold it anymore and the weirdest thing ever I LIKE IT !! every second I hurt someone I loved it I feel good so good and keep replay it I don't hurt anyone I hurt who hurt me but double time even if he is one of my family I like to break them then I think with my logical side this is wrong something is wrong this is not me or maybe me I don't know anymore !!

[Leed]

Hi Emma ~ It sounds like you're really struggling inside, and you need help.

I think you should talk to your doctor and have him refer you to a good therapist who can help you deal with these conflicting emotions. These are tearing you apart, and you certainly can't live like this. So talk to you doctor and let him refer you, okay? The therapist can work with you so the two of you can find a way to deal with this. I'm sure you can!

I wish you the very best. Please let us know how everything turns out, ok? God bless and take care! Hugs, Lee

[Emma 2]

Originally Posted by Leed

Hi Emma ~ It sounds like you're really struggling inside, and you need help.

I think you should talk to your doctor and have him refer you to a good therapist who can help you deal with these conflicting emotions. These are tearing you apart, and you certainly can't live like this. So talk to you doctor and let him refer you, okay? The therapist can work with you so the two of you can find a way to deal with this. I'm sure you can!

I wish you the very best. Please let us know how everything turns out, ok? God bless and take care! Hugs, Lee

Thanks I will