How to accept being forced to be alone

I touched on this in another forum, but today I am attending the going away party of one of my best friends. My ex who quit talking to me and gave no reason will be there with his gf and so will an old flame who said he liked me but couldn't have a relationship (who is in a relationship now). To top it off, I pretty much broke things off with the guy I have been seeing last night. I can't handle being emotionally involved with someone who doesn't know what they are doing in life and can pick up at any moment and move. He almost moved away when I was in Europe and decided to stay at the camp he is at for 3 more weeks. He doesn't seem as hurt as I thought he'd be. I thought I really mattered to him.

So, today will be hard. I don't know how to pretend I'm not hurting and I feel so so disposable. Everyone seems to want me as a "maybe if I find nothing better to do". The worst part is, he was my last chance. I'm not attracted to anyone else in my city. I'm looking at a non romantic and sexless year ahead of me.

I have no one to talk to. I hate all the stupid things people say to try to make you feel better/move on. I'm out of fish in this sea and NO ONE is going to transfer in their senior year and I'm not going to meet anyone new because I am established in my habits.

How do I accept that I have to be alone and watch everyone else happy together and deal with everyone pressuring me to find someone and get laid. I feel so undesirable and worthless.

By the way, I should add that I am a top notch, heavily involved in my community, have lots of habits, and develop my art on a regular basis so I am not really in need of using this time to better myself :/

I know it's very difficult to be alone while watching others around you in relationships. Since it sounds like you have enough to keep you busy with your community involvement and activities, if I'm understanding correctly, just do what makes you happy and tune out the advice you don't want- including mine if it's not helpful.
There's a reason certain people don't make it into your future, so may as well leave it in the past and move on to someone who appreciates you. And as far as your exes- I tend to focus on their negatives when I'm done. It makes it easier to get over and realize they're likely someone else's problem now.

I feel like I'm failing people if they don't like me. I want someone to love me unconditionally so I can love myself. I'm trying to do it on my own and I feel like it isn't working.

Like, why don't I deserve the love that other people are getting?

I ask myself that all the time..."WHY?????" I cannot accept my fate.

I don't know how to get out of this rut I'm in. I feel like it would help if I had the support of a partner.

Until we learn to love and care deeply about ourselves, then ain't nothin' or nobody out there that can or will do it for us either.

Utilize the opportunity of being alone to explore YOU ... Once you come to accept and love who you are, then all that other other stuff will simply fall into place.

You may even find you cherish your alone time so much that you don't want somebody else around all the time.

I like being alone and I am most of the time. I'm even living alone next year. But as an introvert, I do thrive on close friendships and I don't have a ton here. I'm not trying to be contrary, but I'm so sick of looking inward all the time. I just want to be myself and be happy.

Also, I feel like having a sig other helps balance me and build a routine. I don't want to be all by myself every weekend night, but in a college town people who aren't dating you only want to go out and drink. I drink less and am safer when I'm in a relationship. I also like having some one to protect me because rape and abuse towards women is really common on a college campus.

Is everyone 'pressuring you' to get laid, due to the statement, about another year sans romance and sex? What made, this guy your 'last chance'? Last chance, to be part of an on-campus couple for your senior year? Last chance, to have someone, there, during the final year of partying, to protect you? Yes, on-campus assaults, are prevalent on college campuses, and they can be very damaging. I get the notion, of wanting a steady bf/significant other, yet, was this guy, really the end all and be all to the fish, at your school?

Absolutely. I am very established in what I do. No one will transfer in senior year and I know everyone who attends what I am involved in. I know everyone and I'm not interested. It's even rare for me to be physically attracted to someone. But yes, last chance for romance in this city. I even did ok Cupid and hit ignore for everyone on it.