[icaniwillchange]

We're both 16 and have been together for a long time, in a committed relationship. I started school where I went my freshman year this year, and since then everything went to crap. I became severely bullied and tried to reach out several times to others but it seemed as if almost everyone turned their backs to me. Things with him started to get bad about two weeks ago, when I started becoming suicidal again. We tried so hard to work things out, we called hotlines, talked to counsellors, tried to talk... But everything was too much. On monday I hung myself with a belt in the girl's restroom at my school because I wanted everyone to know that THEY were responsible for my death, I wanted to hurt them because they had hurt me. It wasn't a good decision, but I was very distraught and upset. I came very close to death before I was found and ended up in the hospital until last night. Today I went to his house and tried sooo hard to work things out, but he was set on ending us. He said I was too much for him to handle and he needed me to get better before we could be together again. I understand where he's coming from, but I feel like I'm falling apart. When I need him and his support the most, he's GONE. We shared everything. I gave him everything in me, emotionally and physically. I feel like I'm being gutted from the inside out. What do I do??

[Gavinandnikki]

You are very young, you will have more committed relationships in your life. Let him go, hunker down, and focus on working on yourself, without him. You don't need him, you need to love yourself better.

[IndieVisible]

Agree with above post. I hate to say it, but I can't even count all the times I was heart broken growing up thinking my life is over it can't get any worse Well just like after a storm, the sun comes back out again. Think of it as this will make you stronger.

[MarlboroChick]

I've been in the exact same situation. "Too much to handle". Im really sorry about your break up. But if you think about it, if he cant cope with being with someone that has some trouble, it wouldnt have worked out anyways. There isnt any other choice but to move on.

[PeachCream22]

"If you can't handle my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve my best."

icaniwillchange don't give up. Don't ever hurt yourself again, you are loved. I know you have given everything up for your boyfriend, I know how much you have trusted him, but for now..don't think about him. Think for yourself, put some space between you guys. Maybe you should take a little time to think. Perhaps you should work on yourself a bit more, like the above posters said.

Try to be calm...and happy first. This is a lot to handle for two 16 year olds and you HAVE A LOT on your plate, imo. Don't think about your boyfriend for support if it hurts. Find someone else. A parent, another friend, a teacher, and we'll be here. Just don't give up. It's not worth it. After you've finally calmed down, then do the talking with your bf.

[Poppy Princess]

I was gonna use the same Monroe quote. Don't give up! <3

[doyoutrustme]

I cannot imagine your pain, but you broke up with him first when you tried to leave the world forever. He's only sixteen as well.

[Diana1]

I tend to agree with the above posters. You have a lot on your plate to deal with; the bullies, your attempted suicide and now your b/f breaking up with you, your feelings and emotions. Just know that you are loved and that there is help for you. You don't deserve being bullied - at all! I hope you are seeing a counsellor. You need to work through your own issues and on yourself before you can give to someone else. This too shall pass and great things will come your way!

[Poppy Princess]

Here for you <3

Is this the same boyfriend who helped you get pills to OD a few months ago? If so, not a big loss really. You have a history of multiple suicide attempts and hospitalizations. Sounds like you need to work on yourself and not get entangled in any relationships for awhile. You are young and need to try to work on stabilizing yourself through therapy. Hope you get the help you need.