[lovely0ne]

Hello, all.

I get these thoughts in my mind about how "nobody likes me", and I have no friends. I don't know why, because people talk to me, people who I think really didn't like me end up having no problem with me, and what not.

But when I get in this thought pattern, I seriously think in terms of suicide (I am not threatening suicide, here). But it gets me that depressed. I don't ever want to do something stupid, but I don't know how to overcome this.

I don't connect to people well. I am only close to a parent. I am mostly alone, except for at my job, where I feel even more alone.
I was bullied horribly as a child.

Any suggestions? I feel I have no ground on which to relate to people on.

[hellofriends]

Alright, it seems like you really need to speak to a therapist. Your past is clearly affecting you - it makes sense that you think people don't like you, if you were bullied. A therapist will help you recreate your own impression of yourself, and work on your feelings about the experiences you've had.

You should also consider talking to your parent about the issue.

[Staple]

Coincidentally I just happened to log in for the first time in a while and see this. I feel exactly the same way. I have plenty of people in my life I could probably befriend a lot more, but I choose not to get closer to them. I'm often invited to hang out with others, but choose not to. I rationalize by saying I have to work work work, but then I simply go home and get depressed about not having friends....

I was also bullied a lot when I was young, and I have to imagine this has a lot to do with it. I think fundamentally I just don't trust people. It's been over a decade since I was last teased or ridiculed by anyone, but I'm still absolutely afraid of it happening again. Because of this, I have intense feelings of isolation and loneliness. And to make it worse, my coping mechanism is to shield myself with arrogance and elitism--incessantly trying to appear more intelligent than everyone around me. In actuality, I feel incredibly socially inferior and envious.

[ptangptang]

Yep, i have exactly the same feelings. I've been doing different CBT stuff but , for me , it doesn't do much good. I believe much more in positivity. Thinking positively, if you can. ( ok which i guess is an aspect of CBT). If you you can't then there's a problem. Then i think you need to be around postive people and ideally have someone positive come into your life to make you feel special, to make life seem worth living, to spark you into feeling there is a future, to give you something to hold onto ( literallly and metaphorically). Those with friends or partners are lucky, maybe thats enough. For those of us, like me, without either it is very , very hard. I wish you well. You can message me and we can chat . Always willing to make new friends.

[bataviabard]

For what it's worth, this helps me sometimes-- I just ask myself "what is (fill in the blank) for?" and then I wait. A lot of times what I thought was bad turned out good, and conversely what I thought was good turned out, well, not so good.