Short rant about my romantic life

I am in love with a musician. A "real" musician, for those laughing under their breath . He had a crack addiction many years ago. Is now dealing with (and getting help for) a sex addiction. Ive got a whole list of problems, myself, half of which I can't even begin to illustrate. Who in their right minds would want to spend their lives with either of us, I don't know. But together, well, we're "two peas in a pod" and are amazing together (even though **** has hit the fan recently, we are trying to rekindle and are "in it for marriage" as we say). I realize I have painted an unattractive picture of us as individuals but we're so much deeper than our problems that we are consistently seeking help for. I would love more than anything to live out our dream together; living in the woods in a nice cabin, meditating, and composing music. He wants it, I want it, nature wants it (silly as that may sound; please don't ask me to explain). I am hell bent on keeping optimism alive.

Who ever reads this, I intended it as being a rant and for people to connect who have anything similar going on...I guess it sort of ended up being a bit of a public journal entry. Therapeutic to say the least.

How inspiring your post. It sounds like you and your husband are making positive changes in your lives... If you continue on that route, you ought to have no trouble at all maintaining a positive outlook. Keep talking to each other, is all I can say.
I can relate to the living out your dreams bit, the cabin in the woods, composing, meditating... and staying optimistic about your love life. It's work, and ongoing negotiation... you're lucky to be part of a two-peas-in-a-pod situation. That's the only part I can't relate to... I've been in a pod all my own for far too long.
Me? I'd love to live remotely somewhere, off the land, farm, have chickens, cows... come to town once a month for supplies—or even once every other month, run around naked if I want to, ... you know, homestead, kinda thing.
Or, live in a house truck... travel around, stopping whenever and wherever I feel like it.
Keep your eye on the prize... don't let the challenges of life get you down...

Or, as they sing in that Monty Python movie "... always look on the bright side of life..."
God. I'm in a weird mood. Did any of what I said make sense, I wonder..?

Thank you for your reply!
Yes we are doing our best to stay on the right track both independently and together. Youre right, the communication is very important.
Im sorry to hear that seem upset about being a pea on your own. It is a wonderful thing to find the matching one....but it is not without work!
Your dream is not far off from mine at all. I would not want to have animals aside from my cats and maybe a few turtles, haha, but more power to you! Living remotely just sounds so...happy and peaceful. Or even traveling. I have had the thought of doing that for some time now.

I love that quote you used. How true it is!
I mean, one should look at the reality of the situation at hand, but optimism and positivity have more of an impact than many people think.