invisible unwanted man

i seem to be a boil on life and society's butt and need popped

just got banned another forum today hey i might have even been banned here

crap i lost count and track after a couple hundred no exaggeration

im adhd they said they never saw all my problems packed into it before

i have communication learning and other crap on those lines

i ask does that give disability supposed to be caring BS sites right to hate and ignore

i lost count of names called fights

because i post this way and cant change it or post to long or come across wrong

im ignored most site no answer or 2 with 99 ignored views

im 40 and done with childish hate games that screw our kids and adults up

but it still hurts and i keep trying to get on sites for contact and all even though i should quit trying

i accept the long road thats been chosen to walk alone and outcast

off the net life even hates me i lost 3 friends in a week one from school

my wife is nuts and hangs around for some reason

other than posts like this i just have given up life net

the ban was because a member called my post and answer not fight of flam

hey you call it out i will respond i do prefer to keep fights and call outs to pms

dont know its a new undiagnosed disorder the disorder of instant repulsiveness

im to old to run around pweeez be my friend or my lifes over but it still hurts

im a great person no one wants to know

im not a social person and running out of sites so its time to suck it up and accept the path given to walk

i worked as lead alarm investigator i have held hands of dying accident people or held children dying from a accident

i saw to much of what no one else ever sees monsters evil like tar that wont come off

but i never seen real monsters till i went online i saw worse than my job ever showed me

me and others beaten belittled badgered torn to pieces in my old days tear you your life emotions all that down self worth

wow i have yet to have a site respond more than 3 unless a angry name caller or retard type right and we wont ignore you

im nice easy going ask nice or pm i will relook and explain better it comes out wrong or jumbled or wrong impression

i emailed my hospital ceo on the er tossing me calling me names and he wanted to arrest and commit me my counselor told him no

beats me looks and sound ok to my eyes even been told if reread my posts they can be mostly understood

beats me sorry to wast your time i wont post anymore

Hi! Are you seeking any therapy?

Im sorry you are having such a hard time .. As Travelinglady asked are you in Therapy?

There are rules and regulations here on PC and they are for the benefit of everyone that comes here looking for support... Its ok to disagree but its done in a polite way, no flaming , name calling or just plan ugliness If that happens the Moderators will step in . If you are bothered by someone there is a very easy to find Ignore feature. The little red traingle below your name is used to report a problem with a person or a thread.

http://http://forums.psychcentral.co...-8-2014-a.html

I hope that you are able to find the support you need and want here . Welcome to PC

Hello,
I am sorry you are going through a tough time. It's good to have a place to vent, and it's also good to be aware of others feelings. Some of us are really sensitive, and then others who are not bothered in the least by comments on these sites. Sometimes finding your way takes time.
Wish you well!

yea 6 year of recovery and im pretty much happy i accept for the most part

my life has improved 60 percent or more from my past

counselor says no emails or forums i cant typ and always taken wrong or anger people

i try but thats on advice and change thats hard to just shut it all off

its harder to tear me down or get upset or depressed over it but we would be liers if we said stuff still dont at least sting

im allot better and more happy i try my music parks drives i try to stay away because its to many childish judmental world online

i may have said before but i was a response officer working with cops daily

i saw things nobody wants to see or know i have seen the worst most evil dirty side of life so i thought like tar its on me and wont get off

then i met the net a monster like i never saw in my 5 years of work i thought i new how evil the monsters people can be i was wrong

whatever i have learned to stay off as much as possible and a occasional post like this otherwise ignore and except i have gottten to months without using the pc

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."



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Truth is everybody is going to hurt you: you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
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“I know all about insanity. It's not that bad once you beat up everyone who teases you about it.”
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