[midnight.fairy]

I'm a person who suffers from major depression dissorder and social anxiety. Last night my boyfriend and I had a terrible fight. I can't believe how mean he was. To make a long story short he said ppl at work showed him a video of me crying at applebees. I guess I'm nothing but a joke to everyone. I don't even remember crying at that restaurant. I just feel so low right now. I have no friends to talk to and obviously I can't talk to my boyfriend either because he got mad when I told him how much it hurts that everyone laughs at me. I don't even want to get out of bed today. I don't know what I did to deserve the hand I was dealt. Sometimes I wish I had never been born. Maybe I should have posted this on the depression forum. Maybe I would be better off alone.

[avlady]

i don't understand why your boyfriend didn't try to comfort you if he found out you were crying, like ask you what happened that made you cry, that's not too nice. i would rather be alone than with someone like that there are plenty of fish in the sea, i know that's a used up quote but you may want someone better.

[midnight.fairy]

Originally Posted by avlady

i don't understand why your boyfriend didn't try to comfort you if he found out you were crying, like ask you what happened that made you cry, that's not too nice. i would rather be alone than with someone like that there are plenty of fish in the sea, i know that's a used up quote but you may want someone better.

I failed to mention he was drunk. He said he was sorry but I still feel really down about it.

[ptangptang]

Er, why are you still with him. I wouldn't even want that person as a friend let alone a partner. Hmm I didn't read he was drunk, even so.....

[~Christina]

Can I ask you how long you have been together?

Are you in Therapy? If your not you should find one. Your dealing with a lot of issues. I can feel your pain, Its not good to be where you at emotionally right now.

As for the BF.. I don't care if he drunk or not, he should be caring , loving and respect you... He should have been angry that his co-workers would do such a thing and stand up and defend you. No excuse for him to act so foolish and disrespectful.

I am going to guess you don't have a healthy relationship with him, you have alot of self worth issues that you need to learn how to change, You deserve someone that will love you and support you with respect.

As for the hand that was dealt to you? Well sometimes we got a good hand and sometimes a Shyt one.. But you are in control of that.. Think like a poker game....you can toss out some useless cards and get new ones... Maybe your bf is a card that needs tossed out..

I really hope your able to seek help from a Therapist, You will learn ways to cope and become a much stronger person and find happiness and be loved and supported

[bipolarrhea77]

Originally Posted by midnight.fairy

I'm a person who suffers from major depression dissorder and social anxiety. Last night my boyfriend and I had a terrible fight. I can't believe how mean he was. To make a long story short he said ppl at work showed him a video of me crying at applebees. I guess I'm nothing but a joke to everyone. I don't even remember crying at that restaurant. I just feel so low right now. I have no friends to talk to and obviously I can't talk to my boyfriend either because he got mad when I told him how much it hurts that everyone laughs at me. I don't even want to get out of bed today. I don't know what I did to deserve the hand I was dealt. Sometimes I wish I had never been born. Maybe I should have posted this on the depression forum. Maybe I would be better off alone.

Oh Girl I know exactly how you feel. I Have no friends either, ito hard when you go out of yorway trying to make friends just to be laughed at. You are a good person I can tell just by reading how down you are. Don't let people treat you like that if they don't like you tell yourself oh well yell may be laughing but it's only cut you are disgusted with yourself you got to make yourselves feel better by laughing and ridiculing me but guess what the joke is on you. Then tell them to have a wonderful day because you are having a fabulous one and walk in confidence, and if your BFriend doesn't have respect for you and laughs with them or refuses to stick up for you then tell him you a good solid woman and it's too bad he don't see it but the next man will peace. You are a good person, you are worthit, God created you cut you are worth fighting for so it's a blessing get you were born. I can tell you are the person you can be. Stay strong. You are with it. I don't even know you and I know you are, I hope my words help you during your downtime I'm also have severe depression and bipolar hit me up if you need to talk...Sara

[Rose76]

Your boyfriend is being mean. The people at his workplace are also very mean. He should have told them that he had no interest in seeing the video. You have every right in the world to be upset by him coming home with that story.

It's not good to be alone. Still, I would rather be alone that be treated mean. If him being this mean is not typical of how he treats you, then you might want to forgive him, IF he apologizes to you, which you should insist upon. If this is typical of how he treats you, then you might well be better off away from him.

[midnight.fairy]

Thanks everyone for the replies. He did apologize but truthfully he can be really mean sometimes. I do have a psych nurse who is awesome but haven't had luck with therapy. I think I will try it again. Just sucks having no insurance you know. I'm not sure about my relationship at all. The person who said I have low self esteem was absolutely right.