[rainbow]

I am going through a very confusing time. My finance' broke our engagement on July 7th with his own good reasons.
The first week was very hard for both of us. We wanted to stay friends about after being apart only a week we missed each other so much that we slept together again. BUT we are not engaged, not dating just friends (and lovers). I was not happy with that situation so a week and a half ago I told him I didn't want to see him anymore because I was always confused about our relationship. He wasn't very happy. He liked me being his friend, over my house everyday after work for dinner with me and my sons. He wanted to spend both of his days off your work with me, I felt like I had no space of my own. Now that we are apart I actually feel better, but I miss him terribly. So I did a stupid thing the other day, I went to a place I knew he would be in the late afternoon, just to talk, right! Well he asked me to go out with him on Saturday night and I so yes. He may think that this is going to get us back together but I am not sure I want that at all even though I miss him so much. I change my mind often and it drives me crazy it is like I just don't know what I really want. Sometimes I feel like yes this is what I want and then in a few hours or days I don't want it anymore. Does anyone else have this problem and what do you think causes the unstable thinking of the mind?

[rmm5497]

I know exactly what you mean about not knowing what you want...I go back and forth every day about whether I am better off staying in my marriage and working on it or ending it and closing what is now an unpleasant relationship and stop waiting for the day it will be something better. I feel for you rainbow I wish I knew what caused it...Then we could just make up our minds and go forward!

[Zenobia]

I think you are doing the right thing. He wants a relationship with out any commitment to preserving it. That could end up leaving you high and dry with a broken heart in a year or two. Not a good thing.
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