Anxiety gone too far

hi all, my name is collin, and im suffering from generalized anxiety disorder which im taking meds for and going to therapy for

except, its come to a point where im just so confused as to what i really feel. my anxiety targets my dearest girlfriend, the woman i love and want to marry and stay with. it first appeared at the start of our relationship, 2 years ago. (weve known eachother for about 6 years)

i used to always laugh and smile with her and id love to talk to her every day and just be with her. now i just cant laugh or smile genuinely, it feels forced. my anxiety tells me i lost interest in her, even if nothing changed

im really scared that i wont feel guilty or sad when i hurt her. because thats when you know you dont love someone, they say

my mind tells me to break up and find someone better. but i dont want to! i just want to be happy with my girlfriend! and yet, at the same time, i want to give in to my fears. i want to break up and leave her forever, but at the same time i dont

i know that i would get up after breaking up with her but i dont want to lose her... i love her so much but im just so confused

she doesnt want to talk about it because she has chronic fatigue and cant really deal with panic attacks. it makes me feel so guilty, she worries so much for me but i seem to not care at all and i wish it was different

i just want to be happy with my girlfriend and i dont want to lose her but its so tempting to give up everything because i cant take it anymore

chronic fatigue is a hard thing to live with, i think i have it but was never checked for it. anyway i'm exhausted from almost doing anything. i sleep over 12 hours a night, i do have sleep apnea, on several meds, maybe that is why too. i feel for you not being able to decide. it is a hard decision to make-to leave or stay. you do have to do one or the other, so you don't leave her hanging. if you're feeling this is the time to leave then do it. you shouldn't stay if you're not comitted. things will get worse and you'll end up doing it anyway. then there will be alot of lost time for the both of you.good luck

Maybe you just need to take a break, and see how you feel with the anxiety, and how you feel about your girlfriend, whether you miss her or not. Take about one or two weeks of no contact and see how you feel. Your girlfriend will understand if you tell her it's due to your problem with anxiety, hopefully. Good luck.

i offered a week separation but she said that she wouldnt be able to keep that up unless it was really necessary, and frankly, i dont feel like separating either...

i have things i can do that make the missing less but im so afraid i wont miss her at all. but just because you dont miss someone wouldnt mean you dont love them, right...?

Are you in therapy? It might help.

You say you've lost interest in her, but that's not how you talk about her. Are you sure you haven't lost interest in yourself instead?

Don't make any hasty decisions. That's the best piece of advice I can give you. I also suffer from anxiety and one morning I just woke up and impulsively broke up with my boyfriend. I regret that deeply. I miss him. So don't make any hasty decisions. Make sure you really think long and hard before you decide to either break up with her or stay with her. There's no use rushing it.